Emo Pledge

2010-05-19T02:48:00.000-07:00

Jealousy has taken over me. I've changed, for the worst. I don't know what happen to me these few days. It's just......
I point middle-finger to Jamie and Boon, and I insulted something important to Jamie infront of her. I walk away, I don't care. I betrayed my class. I..I..

2010-04-23T05:06:00.000-07:00

If friends are flowers bloomed in your garden, then these seeds I've planted bear into nothing.

I've tried, you know. I really did. You know? Sigh..Nobody knows..

My friends, goodbye..

2010-04-15T23:28:00.000-07:00

Each time I want to tell you,
My words came out as lies.

These days I'm feeling distant,
Far away and weak.
My sadness pulls me further,
From the happiness I seek.

Cutting had been a release, an ephemeral exhale, a brief hope that I could make it hurt enough to release the pain, so that I could smile again, and that my smile would be for real. I wanted to make myself bleed, and watch myself heal.

The deepest scars are not cuts you laid the knife on, but the memories of feeling that nobody else understood me and a sense of feeling abandoned and helpless.

2010-04-13T03:50:00.000-07:00

Danica fainted during PE today, hope she gets well soon kay.
A rat in the canteen today cause such a chaos can!
I've found my long-lost calculator!
Had got some talks with Aishwarya today.(:
Study in library.

Tire..Tire..Tire..
I'm paranoid.

2010-04-01T18:50:00.000-07:00

It's good friday, and it is not good at all. Fuck!

First thing in the morning when I woke up, I cried. LOL! 'Cause someone appears in my dream..My dream is all about her......

I'm so lost..in this maze called life. I don't know which ways to go, the right one where there's nothing left; or the left one where there's nothing right.

Maybe I should choose the right path, because there's nothing left, there won't be pain and hurts..

I wish my life is like a Correction Tape...

*Correction Tape, something so holy yet so fake...

2010-03-31T02:06:00.000-07:00

Had been sick for past three days, been feeling better now. A new mark on my hand, this mark is so cool and nice, it doesn't fade! haha..

Yesterday, it rained. I was walking home half way, then it rained. I didn't run to hide in the block or whatever, I just walk...

Walking in the rain,
I lift up my head.
Gently,
The raindrops fall on my face,
And droplets flow across my cheeks.
They run down my lips,
And they taste salty.
I don't know,
If they are raindrops,
Or just my tears.

I wrote this, and Ms Foong says it's good, haha (:

Today, I was super depress..I'm just so feeling upset and all..I feel like crying, and someone actually told me to cry out so that I'll feel better, but I did not. Then, until just now, she brighten up my day, I don't know..It's because of her that I'm sad this whole day, but it was also her, who brighten me. Just so..happy..and relief...
However, this doesn't change anything...

2010-03-26T05:45:00.000-07:00

Look at what I've done! Whoops! I bought a metal ruler, and it was great, though pain, and the line doesn't last long too, so it'll fade away quickly. =D

I feel so unwanted!

2010-03-25T06:13:00.000-07:00

Jialing taught me something this Monday, and wow! It really brightened me..ohoho..Was doing it today, so damn excited XD XD kay, done, bye~

2010-03-15T05:39:00.000-07:00

Leadership Camp~

Fun?! Absolutely~ And I think only my group is fun, 'cause almost all other groups say boring, and we're like GAMES THRGOUHOUT THE WHOLE CAMP! haha..

Learn many things, and of course, met new friends, all these people are Oh-My-Goshy-Crazy! They are Shah (1D) Carine (3F?) Tsze Teng(3F?) Joey(3F?) Felicia (??) Samanta(2?) Ryan(1F)

Stressing around with Samanta (or is it Samantha?) We play poker cards! Dai di and stress! Damn stress arh..haha..Played Dai Di with Tong Hui, Samanta and Jim Son, heheh

2010-03-11T23:03:00.000-08:00

It's the last day of school and I haven't even gotten back my result, maybe because I did badly? Or that I'm no good in class? Kay, whatever..And NTRIX doesn't even show your result.. Teachers lied! lol..whatever..

Missed Chocolate~

2010-03-05T04:49:00.000-08:00

Back to Blog..?

Forgot how to use blog 'cause long time no use..?
I'll try to blog more......

So Hi! Ya, I'm back to blogging. Maybe emo stuff most of the time?

Sec 3 life stress uhh..Has been scolded by Ms Ong often this week. One thing she said,"What stop you all from focusing? Is it facebook?" My eyes turn watery...Not facebook that kept me lost focus..It's the tireness I felt, tire of life, tire of everything...Tire..so tire..Slept in the bus yesterday due to tireness..spurt blood

2010-01-24T05:21:00.000-08:00

Lalala~

My blog's dead, I know..I know..Cause I haven't really been in a blogging mood cause there's really ain't much things for me to blog about..Maybe camp and sec 3 life? just random..lol haha changed songs..Fell in love with Taylor Swift's songs and those who says her sucks or useless, Lady Gaga is no way better anyway. (:

2009-12-20T20:24:00.000-08:00

Sing Along
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
'cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
.
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...a murderer
.
I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another day
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
As if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
'cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I'm happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

2009-12-01T02:36:00.000-08:00

Sutera Mall on Sunday, bought a belt and a bag, small small that kind that can only contain handphone.
National Museum on Monday, got all excited up and Vivian say I'm crazy.
Bugis Shopping Street on Tuesday, bought a watch and was actually wanna buy a watch for a birthday boy but I forgot!! Arh, never mind. XD
K box tomorrow, looking forward to it.

2009-11-26T18:52:00.000-08:00

Alala~

Band camp coming, lol, don't feel like going, again! 'cause I hate camp, ya! But, I'll still be going, why?! 'cause I can prank them at night and all ya! LOL!

2009-11-17T23:28:00.000-08:00

So Be It.

Blame me, I don't care. I'm used to it, kay. If you want it this way, so be it, I don't care and I don't wanna care. What's my problem? I don't want to explain and I don't owe you an explanation. I'm just tired..Just..Real..Tire..

If you wanna know what happen, go to my MT blog.
www.fallen-bing.blogspot.com

2009-11-17T21:12:00.001-08:00

It's just the same, kay.

2009-11-14T06:54:00.001-08:00

I know that from the first time I saw you with your smile and my heart start to pump fast and face turn red.
I know that from the first time I saw your names side by side and your face turns red.

2009-11-13T07:33:00.000-08:00

Each day, I become weaker. How much I miss you, cause my body to be weaken. Each photo I see you, my heart beat fast. Each time your name appear, my heart stop pumping. Each time you talk to me, my ears turn red. Each time you ignore me, my heart broke into pieces that cannot be taped again by anyone.

2009-11-11T17:52:00.000-08:00

Trip To Malaysia!

What could I say? It's fun, obviously! This might/shall be a long post. (:

Firstly, at the custom, we all get to the other side(Mysia) already, but Singh, Low and Aye is lost!! Then all wait for them in the bus, but the guide go find them. And this is our(Leong, Boon, Me) conclusion: Low, Singh and Aye was together, then they were caught because "No Pet Allow". XP

First Stop: Chocolate Factory!
The guy talk talk awhile then demo how to make chocolate, he show the first step only, he put the choco ball inside, then put some powder. Then got the smell super super nice! Then suddenly Aaron shout: Eh! It becomes round!
Then we're like =,="
Free choco drink sample, Aaron drink many as he says:" Don't waste" haha..Oh my gosh, the toilet there arh, still need climb stairs de orh! Aaron say his pee is brown!( He drank many choco)
Tried tomato choco, some say nice but I find it too sweet..? Not nice..

Second Stop: Breakfast~
Breakfast at kopitiam, waited damn long! 'Cause the other table "stole" our wanton mee. =,="
Finished breakfast, went to seven-eleven. I don't know what to buy TnT cause got many things marh >,<

Third Stop: Rolay Museum!
Very nice. Especially the crystal room XD Vian and Boon say wanna stay there forever haha. Went to the Gold and Silver Collection Room, saw something that caught my eyes--The Holy Staff! Super cool and long! One thing that make us laugh is the super big size earrings! Wa lao! Damn big sia! The one who wears it sure got a long ears. Then Boon demo how she'll wear the earrings, haha lmao XD
The hunting house! So cool and nice! Saw Leong's head hanging there XD!!!
Went to the Muslim Sepulcher. The guide say: Between two tombs lied the dead. But I wonder: The distances are so short, are the people short? However, this is our conclusion: Between the tombs lie only the head!

Interlude 1: Nap Time~
Boring at first, cause most are sleeping, nothing to do. However, I found some entertainment, not by msging Yap, but took pictures of all those sleeping! Mwuahaha!
Some sleep till look ugly; Some cool; Some cute

Forth Stop: Lunch~
Lunch--Seafood! Crabs, tofu, vege, prawns, fish.
Wah! Full, full, super full. But vege, prawns not finish yet, so Low come out with a game--终机密码 and those who lost had to eat the whole plate of food. Thura eats prawns, Vian eat vege, Aye eat cucumbers. When Low says vege, Rengie thought she call her, LOL! haha..
Low treated us ice-cream! This made other tables' students jealous cause they bought themselves! Haha~
Half way eating, a fly come disturb us, then it flys to the other tables, Deep and Jing screamed and Galen jumped, haha.

Fifth Stop: Desaru Farm
Part 1: Fruits Farm
The guide told us all about the fruits and all, then the first we visit is dragonfruits, then beside the dragonfruit trees are the tall trees surrounded with white powder, I told everyone that this is to keep snakes away and Aaron really believe it! Ha!
Walk around, guide brought us around and told us about fruits and flowers and leaves. There got pond and sold fish foods to feed them. See big swarm of fishs coming here and going there, lol. Godwin put hands in for them to suck. Then is the bees area, got one big bees flying around and around haha, some girls stand at far back XD
Part 2: Anime Farm
We saw Ehem's relatives. XD
Saw goats, big and small, come in all shape and size, the horns are also all different. Rengie want to take pic with the small goat, but the big goat was beside it then she scare, haha.
Next is crocodile, it didn't move and look like statue!
Rabbits and chickens are free to move around, so they grab it, touch it.
Ostrich! I saw it pee and shit! The shit is like those drawn in cartoon, ice-cream like that kind, haha. Smelly..
Part 3: Bees and Honey
The guide told us about bees and honey, and warn us if bees come, don't move, stay there. Then there are many bees flying around, Rengie scare tio stunned cause she dare not move. We tried the honey, super sweet!
Did you know that after taken royal jelly, the queen bee can give birth up to 3000 babies a day? If you are having problem giving birth, please try this royal jelly (:

Sixth Stop: Jusco!!
Left one and a half hour to shop, Singh let us group ourselves but in the end he group for us cause you-know-why, but nobody cares. Under Low's groups are Vian, Aye, Ren, Xinyin, Thura, Boon, Ben, Bing. Took group picture, then went to Cloth Shop, Boon say if he wear mini skirts sure can attract many guys, ahaha!
Went to Toy 'R' Us and was stalk by Elise's group, Aaron and co. Stayed there for quite awhile, play with the teddy bears and swords like primary school children, haha. Then saw Singh's group, Seann, Chee, Khai, Jacob, coming, so we ran away.
Then wander around, saw CandyWorld, so all chiong up there, but at escalator there saw Singh's group again, so we all walk very very fast, he stopped Low and I heard he ask "Why yours so big group?" Then later Low catch up and ask why we walk so fast, I told her " Later he grab us to his group how?"
Went to CandyWorld and bought some choco and we set off to KFC! Elise's group is there already, then we bought food and start to eat, Singh's group came in. All three groups gather in one place, but never sit together or talk.
Finish eating the chickens and left wiped potatoes and the vege which I-don't-know-call-what. Nobody wanna eat, so we play终机密码again, same group as just now but this time got Ben, so taught him how to play and we started! Played many rounds, then all kena at least once, then time's up and off we set back to bus, we're already late and thought that we're the last but not! There're later group.
While waiting for the last group, Galen hide in the bus and frighten those walking pass by, haha, very funny sight.
Heard that Janson's group played one hour++ of arcade =,="
The last group is Singh's group, then we--Leong, Boon, Thura, Me-- made another conclusion: They were caught because No Animals Allow in Jusco!

Last Stop: Back To Singapore!
On the way back, Aaron, Galen and Godwin disturb Aye, Pei and Vian, they act gayish and I think they're imitating Singh but Singh don't know, still co-oporate with them! Ha! Ren and I was like laughing and say him idiotic larh XD

Interlude 2: Mac Donald~
Back to Singapore, Low,Vian,Ren,Jing,Pei,Thura,Boon,Me stopped at Khatib mrt and Low, Jing, Pei, Thura, Boon and Me went to eat Mac.
There's a group of teens celebrating birthday, they are so loud but I don't think anyone is disturbed. Everytime they screamed, I was like "Haiz, teenagers these days" Jing will nobbed her head "Ya lor, teens." Low was laughing and say "You all very old hor"
Pei sat beside Jing, then we talk about their relationship then Jing will moved to beside WITH Thura, then Pei get jealous and said something to agitate Jing to come and sit beside him, aiyo~I saw through what he's thinking XD
After eating and drinking, there left one more food--snack wrap, Nobody wanna eat, so we played终机密码again! Played two rounds cause the first round Low don't wanna take >,<

Mission 001: Tables Fight!
Location: Mac Donald.
Date: 11th November '09
Time: 8pm - 8:30pm
Agents involved: jingWen, Boontien, Binghan
JingWen: The Attacker.
Boontien: The blur one.
Binghan: The spy.
Code: Mac Donald Cheese Burgar Double Cheese Double Burger.
Mission Failed...

Final Episode: Home Sweet Home.
Took same bus as Low and Thura, talk about craps and rubbishs and junks. Low say she was an emo kiddo. Talk about how fun today was =D one thing she said very correctly "Today was fun because IT IS YOUR CLASS" Mwuahaha!
Low get down two stops before ours, then Thura and me get down at same stops.

The End Of Yesterday's Trip To Malaysia!
Photos had been uploaded to facebook.

2009-11-09T04:57:00.000-08:00

Learnt something ^.^

Love is not about how much you give,
it's about how much he or she felt from you.

我躲你，是因为我怕你。
我怕你，是因为我爱你。

2009-11-05T21:29:00.000-08:00

Short post, real short.

You were born an original
Don't die as a copy.

我对你的爱, 我相信会随着时间的流失而淡化.

2009-11-04T23:54:00.000-08:00

Changed blogskin, due to some image problem by the previous skin. But luckily I found this nicer blogskin huh (: Pretty boring recently. Internet cable is spoil, warranty card lost..Don't know what to do..

Maybe I should just leave you alone.
No sms
No Msn
No calling
No nothing

2009-11-03T22:59:00.000-08:00

Mother Tongue remedial this morning, make fun of Cerrene Leong's name again. She's got a new nickname. Went to canteen to eat, then went to Boontien's house with Jingwen and Peizhi. Played mahjong for an hour, then Jw went for extension. So left 3 people, Reca, bt's sis, join us. I won the most larh! XD! Pz win no round, not even 1. Played for another hour, then went to watch Moonlight Resonance. Finished Moonlight Resonance, Bt and Pz are fighting for the rmeote control -,- Pz damn idiot larh! HE keep hitting Bt infront of Reca somemore, haha, later Reca (fierce) whack him then he'll die. I've never see someone who shuffle mahjong tiles can make them fly out de lorh! Sure is his oily hand 滑掉 them larh. In the middle of the game, I laugh like crazy monkey XD. Pz really very 讨人厌 leh. lol..He go anywhere also kena shoot(吐嘈) de larh.

2009-11-02T05:48:00.000-08:00

Movie with Janson Yong, Gies, Vivian, Thura, AE, Danica, Nayoon, KW, Michelle, Cerrene and Galen. We watched sister's keeper. Quit boring actually.. When the scene was sad, we all laughed. 'Cause there're popcorn war between the girls and guys, haha! Galen put popcorns on AE's hair somemore! And I was like holding my laughter. Then after the movie, all sabo Thura say is he who put corn on AE. I heard Cerrene cried because the movie was touching or 'cause Thura throw corn at her? Haha.. After movie went infront of popular and talk crap like nobody's business =D. We met Angie's brother and mother! Her mother saw all of us and said something that make us laugh! She say "You(Angie) are the shortest leh!" LOL!!! Haha..Her mum also bad XD

2009-11-01T06:02:00.000-08:00

BB yesterday, Squad A has no Squad Leader and assistant squad leader is the COS(i think or CSM?) then nobody wanna take the place (take attendace de) then the Zhen Jie tell me to be! I was like stun! I don't know what to do larh! But in the end I made it with a number of samura XD.

"You are the one I miss the most."
How I wish I can say this to you personally, not by MSN or SMS, but from my mouth to your ears, eyes to eyes.

I was just viewing the school magazine, I took a look at the class photo '08, awwww..Everyone of you (not including me) look so small! Especially PZ Galen Godwin..PZ like a toot..Awwww!! Children, you have grown up fast..

2009-10-30T22:48:00.000-07:00

29/10/09, a thursday I'll never forget. The thing that you did to me, I want to cry but yet I smile, because it's you... Facing you, what can I do except for smiling on the outside while hurting in the inside.

30th October '09
Result!! 6As 3Bs~Rank #4!! Last day of school! About more than half of us separate! Uhhh..Awww.. So sad. Will never forget those days, they seem to be just happened yesterday.
也许这就是我们的缘分,总是那么的短,也许这次的分开是上天为了向证明原来我没有你,也活得下去.

Meet Angie at the old place again, she was late again! Saw Syafei, Galen and Godwin waiting for Aaron, heard they're going to Escape uhh, Angie say so hot weather later they kana burnt. Meet Jingwen, Boontien and Peizhi at Kbox. First time went Kbox, compare to PartyWorld, it is better, lol. Went wild with the songs 魔术先生, 第一天, 离开地球表面, love game and you belong with me. So fun jumping on the sofa. Angie sing the most; Bt sing the least; ejected Pz the most! Haha! Angie Pz sing duet the most larh!!

Angie! You very bright le! Blind my eyes larh! Go away! Go away! You are so bright that someone is unhappy already! Boontien! You are even brighter can! Aiyo!
(老人唱老歌哦!)

2009-10-29T05:22:00.000-07:00

A fun day today, I suppose. Movies before recess and games after recess.

"Friends are nothing but a tool for one to make use of. When you don't need it, you abandon it; When you need it, you find it."
And I'm just a tool.

与其活着痛苦,倒不如死了一了百了.

快乐活着是一天;伤心活着是一天,他们说不如快乐活着更好,我却觉得死了不用担心活得快不快乐更好.

2009-10-26T07:27:00.000-07:00

So late then post cause I FORGOT!

Nothing much, just some usual, school, CCA, home.

star-bing.blogspot.com
I am a star,
Blinking and Bling,
So bright this minute,
And fade away the next.

My love for you faded away with me.

2009-10-23T02:50:00.000-07:00

~Birthday Boy Of The Day~

Gotten back all the paper by the day. Did quite well I guess..
English:64
Chinese:70
Math:82
Science:79
Geography:75
History:68
Home Econ:80
Literature:62
(Converted to 100%)
3Bs 5As for paper exam. Hope to maintain these and won't be pull down by other work.

Liang Wen Fu talk today. Fun and Bore..Cold and Sleepy.

视而不见,听而不觉,我用掩耳盗铃来自欺欺人.

2009-10-21T05:31:00.000-07:00

Lost the will, again. I have once again lost the will to live. I'm better off death, right?

"You seem to be close to everyone but actually you are not."
-A phrase from someone about me.

Though I hold these words for you deep inside of my heart,
I hope thay will reach you someday.

This love is rising higher,
Like the pounding beat of my heart.

I feel the intense fire,
But I don't know where to start.

This everlasting emotion just won't let me free!

Maybe coindence, just maybe chance or something more..

2009-10-20T03:31:00.000-07:00

Sport Elective Programme

Bowling for today and tomorrow, strike twice today! HA! Beat that!

contradiction
I'm vexed. I'm bothered. Hide in a corner, dark corner, what can I do?

If you are feeling confused, uncertain and anxious at times, contact someone to assist you.
This is what the note in facebook says, but.. Hello? Is anyone there..? No..?
I'm looking for someone but nobody's there.

2009-10-18T22:14:00.000-07:00

Past...

Past few days I've been doing NOTHING! What had I done? Simple, staring at the computer screen. Boring sia, don't know how am I going to survive in the holiday, maybe I'll go do part job with Michelle? But I think she's going back to Malaysia. La~la~la~ What can I do? I don't know! Don't know where to go~Don't know what to do~

A typical Monday, woke up at 5:30 like that. I think I'm going crazy! I watch tv until 12 yesterday, so that I can wake up late today, but I woke up at 5:30! Siao! From morning until now, have been staring at the computer screen..

2009-10-16T18:57:00.000-07:00

Back To Blog.

Exams Are Over!
Jason Gone Mad On 7th October!
Blogskin Changed!
Blog Songs Changed!

Exams are over, finally! Exhausted sia. Never been so in to study and revising before. EOY is easier than MYE, in my opinion. Hardest is Math ba.
Jason gone mad, you all should know what happen..TnT

Blogskin changed~Blog songs changed~
1. You-Christina Vee
2.You-Yuria
3.我们怎么了-S.H.E
4.Bring me to life(Wake me up inside)-Evanescence

Yesterday was marking day, but we still went back to school or AEP. It was quite boring. While listening to Mr Yeo and during the competition, I've teary eyes..'Cause I yawn XD Our group very jialat eh!

矛盾-你对我时温时冷让我很困扰
P/S:我的痛苦谁能了;我的悲哀何人知

2009-10-01T05:28:00.000-07:00

--A--

Firstly,I'm not cock-eye!
Secondly,you're the one who talk more okkay!
Lastly,thanks for this!

Exam coming, will not be posting till exam finish, so bye~

P/S:Stop laughing at 150cm Life cause who knows you might be laughing at yourself?!

2009-09-24T03:43:00.000-07:00

Care

Action always speak louder than word

Such a phrase full of logic and common sense

It is until now today

Then I realise what it means

I don't want to talk

I don't wish to talk

Just leave me alone

Those whom I once cherish,

Thos whom I once treasure;

Those whom I once miss,

Those whom I once love;

They are gone

In a momment

Under the word of 'care'

And will never be back..

Jealous by the scenario

Envy of their care

To think that I once belong to them

Really make me sad

Every little care can be seen from others

Yet I felt so uncare

When the problem arrive

Only then I realise who I am

They are there for them

While I'm only fighting by myself

单枪匹马的孤独战士啊!
你要坚强,你要振作!
不要因为其他战士有伙伴,

就土崩瓦解了...

别忘了你是独行侠

独行侠擅长冷漠与无情

不要被他人的人间温情

给影响到你原本的本性

泪, 它不是你的字眼

坚强吧!振作吧!

单枪匹马的孤独战士啊!

P/S:自知者自知;无知者无知

2009-09-23T01:44:00.000-07:00

100th post!

This is the 100th post, so I'm not going to post anything about anything, just a phrase from someone..

Every 60 seconds you spent getting upset, is 1 minute of happiness that you won't get back. (:

--A--

Every Mega Mac Spicy you eat, is 1kg you will never wanna to get

--B--

2009-09-21T05:36:00.000-07:00

Water Bubble(水泡)!!

Holy MaMa Chicken Nugget Shitty Face!!
Grrrrr!!
Water bubble grow on my lip!
So damn itchy and it makes my lip so dry!
I'll have to lick my lip..(to wet it!)

It grows so big!! (Like my ears liddat -,-)
It's so obviously BIG!
And now!
IT TURNS BLACK!!

AH!!!!!

Tomorrow go school then like......

...

2009-09-19T03:42:00.000-07:00

BB promotion, I almost faint, I felt dizzy standing there, I'm very hungry, everything I see turns black -,-
CIP today,it was fun though it seems boring! I'm soooooooo excited about the BMI thingy that Danica say I'm crazy! Was playing with the BMI thingy like..always? XD Actually I want to help those visitors to do BMI thing but I scare/nervous lol haha..
Aaron's parents look fierce XD When her mum took BMI she was like wanna punch people on the face like that..And!! Aaron's father say Aye Ei is fierce!!haha..sure u all know what happen XP
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I saw S with S's hair down,it was sooooooo nice looking! Never see S put down hair before..Cuter than before XP
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In order to win the game of chess, first move is important

In life, the same applies

First move must be made

If you are not the one moving

I won't be sitting here and wait for nothing

I will, therefore, make an extreme scream(一鸣惊人)

2009-09-18T02:39:00.000-07:00

没结果的花

未完成的牵挂

我们学会许多说法

来掩饰不碰的伤疤

因为我会想起你

我害怕面对自己

我的意志

总被寂寞吞食

因为你总会提醒

过去总不会过去

有种真爱

不是我的

假如我不曾爱你

我不会失去自己

想念的刺

钉住我的位置

因为你总会提醒

尽管我得到世界

有些幸福

不是我的

Flower with no end

We learn many of the claims

To cover not touched scars

Because I will think of you

I was afraid to face myself

I will always be

Swallowed by loneliness

Because you always remind me

The past will not extinct

Some kind of True Love

Do not belong to me

If I had not love you

I will not lose myself

The torn of missing you

Nailed me on my position

Because you always remind me

Even if I had the world

Some kind of Happiness

Do not belong to me

2009-09-17T05:17:00.000-07:00

仙人掌的眼泪

曾经,仙人掌是没有刺的

它总被人瞧不起，被人糟蹋

直到有一天有人想把它连根拔起

却被它不知什么时候长出的刺给刺着了

这是仙人掌的盔甲，

却偏有人无视它，

便有了一幕武士拿刀挥砍仙人掌

仙人掌青绿色的汁液顺着被砍的地方流下

武士惊讶于它居然如此的柔弱

仙人掌的泪，

刺痛了武士的眼睛，

握刀的手颤抖着，

一声“叮当”落在了地上...

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记得每次在自己最伤心和最需要别人安慰的时候，却没人陪着我一起安抚那伤，只有我手中婉转的文字擦过我的泪，我便开始相信，谁也不会知道我的伤有多深，有多痛，从此我便开始学着一个人抱着自己躲在黑夜的某个角落哭泣，不再诉说。就算遇到的困难，多么的让我疲惫，我也会咬牙硬撑，直到倒下。也不会再无知的指望着别人的帮助，我怕够了冷漠的眼。我只能深藏自己。

2009-09-15T02:28:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I just wanna...Only if I am as strong, I won't ended up like this--keeping happiness, and thinking why I don't deserve it..
Signing in to my msn almost everyday, for what? For that I could talk to someone, anyone. But I did not. Signing in, though there're many onlines, there's no one I can talk to. It's just so sad.
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哼着那首歌...
从平淡的眼神里
不知不觉想起你
低哼着那首情歌
又再次想起了你
心还在跳动着
是不是还爱你呢
眼泪不知觉掉下
还有什么舍不得
也只能低哼情歌

2009-09-14T05:58:00.000-07:00

Some people, or should I say, most human beings tend to ask you "What happen?" When you're feeling down. However, these questions which make you felt that they care for you is a FAKE. People asked, not because that they care, but because they're curious. They just want to know, and after that they'll stop those askings. This is a deep hurt towards us, more pain then before you answer them their question. When someone asked this kind of question, it gives us the information that they care for us. However, after telling them, they'll stop asking, which make us felt contradiction and dilemma. When the problems arise again, we want to tell them, but they doesn't seem to care anymore, it's so sad...
P/S:Broken English..
I wanna cry out loud, really loud...When you thought somebody is different, and you tell him the truth, he tend to act like how you thought he wouldn't..It's really sad to learn this..So! Can not judge a person by his appearance and how you thought he might be. Get the fact right first!
This post is for no one but myself,it may sound like you, but it is purely not(broken english I guess)

2009-09-13T07:01:00.000-07:00

Yesterday,a 3-tea-饼 day. Went out with Shan and Tee to watch G-Force. Before we went into the cinema,we go buy tibits.Shan make a fool out of herself..And I influenced the stall uncle!HA!
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At the NTUC...
("traffic" jam,we're stuck)
Shan: Move faster la!(shouting at the uncle infront)
Uncle:(turned his head)
Shan:(Quickly turn to Tee) Move faster!
Tee:(blurred)
Bing:AHAHA!!!(hitting Shan's head)
Uncle:People infront are not moving!(he know shan is saying him!HA!)
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At the dunno wad stall...
(Q-ing up)
Tee:I wanna buy 甜不辣!
Shan:What's that?!
Bing:Seahood! (was saying seafood)
Shan:What's that?!
Bing:Seahood!!
Tee:I don't know
Bing:I told you is seahood liao!
Tee:Uncle,what's 甜不辣?
Uncle:Seahood lol!
Bing:See! I told you is seahood!
Shan:SEAFOOD LA!seahood seahood!
Tee:I don't know you two!(talking to me and Shan)
Uncle:Ha!Me too!
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So,after watching G-force,head back home..Shan say wanna be entertainer but in the end I'm the one making all the noises..Oh! By the way,we saw Shawn,the CSS2 guy,he look so fat XP
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Was listening to 徐佳瑩(lala)'s song all day from the day before yesterday to today! So nice and touching and they make me cry..Songs like 哼情歌 and 失落沙洲 so damn nice!Sob sob..go try listen arh..

我不是一定要你回来

只是当又一个人看海

回头才发现你不在

留下我迂回的徘徊

我不是一定要你回来

只是当又把回忆翻开

除了你之外的空白

还有谁能来教我爱

我只好夜夜哼情歌

是因为他拥着你了

不想往事

因为你们背影

而毫无气色了

是不是还爱着你呢

所以我心还在跳动着

还有什么舍不得

也只能哼情歌

你留下泛黄的承诺

要我抱着你的双手

流着泪不准你走

说我贱我也无话可说

连哭都是我的错

在你面前还要我怎么做

我看见你们拥抱

还一笑而过

沉默是我的错

2009-09-10T22:58:00.000-07:00

我爱谁跨不过从来也不觉得错
自以为抓著痛就能往回忆里躲
偏执相信著受诅咒的水晶球
阻挡可能心动的理由
而你却靠近了逼我们视线交错
原地不动或向前走突然在意这分钟
眼前荒沙弥漫了等候
耳边传来孱弱的呼救
追赶要我爱的不保留

2009-09-07T21:19:00.000-07:00

Was having MT rmedial yesterday,then went all the way to Northpoint library to read book--Accuracy of Death God (chinese book) a very nice book indeed. It's very thick,but I skip to last chapter which is <> It's about the D.G spy on the woman whom D.G is going to submit the name to his boss to "kill" her( in an accident) The woman identify that the guy is a D.G andwasn't scare at all.
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Then went back to school for concert band..Th conductor sure is a nagger..Talk for one whole hr..ZZzzz..After band in the bus, was 打口水战-ing with Kris with Hui ru..lol..Funny haha..The people was all looking at us XP

2009-09-06T06:56:00.000-07:00

Was viewing through my handphone's songs,found some songs which are nice but I haven't listen to them for a long time--one of them is the Angel by Whiten Temptation,the first english song when I get my first handphone. It is still so nice! It's lyrics too..So I set it as my blog song. I'v got nothing to post and I know my post are all so lame..cause I talk about nothing -,- just some stupid craps and all..
Oh Oh! I know what to talk about liao..I just watch the Princess Protection Programme(PPP)~Nice eh~Really like Selena Gomez~She was cool! And Demi Lovato was cool in the PPP. Anyway The Movie Was Very Very VERY Nice~haha..

2009-09-05T06:35:00.000-07:00

FARTED!

Yesterday,someone aim at me and fart!He still dare to say not smelly when Danru yell"That's stink!" Yesterday was a boring day except for science..That guy who farted keep talking to me about anything and everything..So I'm not bore =D

Gotten result slip..Mum was angry..Who cares?!I don't!

Today went to Yu Guang Zhong's talk! Damn bore I tell you!! I almost felt asleep! I closed my eyes several times I tell you..Then when I felt asleep I heard Candy and Tizane was saying "See! He is sleeping!" Then I woke up liao..-,-

You know what happen in the bus?!Tizane and Candy always sit together..Then when board the bus I saw Tizane go sit infront of Candy..Then I walk past Candy and I saw what happen!

CANDY ONE PERSON SIT TWO SEATS!

Then I laugh at her..Then Ms Loh went to sit with her and Candy say "I do not sit two seats hor!" Then was saying about why Tizane don't want sit with Candy blah blah and Tizane say "I wan to lean on window marh" Ms loh rply"Aiyo,no need explain le larh..We all know very well" (Because the seats can't fit they two..keke!Ms Loh say de!)

2009-09-03T04:43:00.000-07:00

第一次

第一次我看见你......第一次你对我笑......第一次我跟你说话......第一次你威胁我.....第一次你在华文课上跑来跟我坐......第一次我碰到你......第一次你告诉我秘密.....第一次我笑你的秘密......第一次你偷看我的考卷......第一次我跟你一起作弊......第一次你poke我......第一次我打你......第一次一起出门......第一次一起买书......第一次你向我诉苦......第一次你误会我......第一次我惹你生气......第一次你让我哭泣......第一次的沉默......第一次一起看电影......第一次在巴里坐你旁边......第一次你拉着我......第一次你抓着我的手......第一次你拖着我......第一次我和你单独在电梯里......第一次你偷看我......第一次我偷看你......第一次我们正眼交叉......第一次你避开我......第一次我约你出门......第一次我骗你......第一次我拉扯你的袖子.....第一次我做气球脸.......第一次你看见我的气球脸......第一次你说我呆......第一次我说你可爱......第一次你吓我......第一次我被你吓到.....第一次你不理我......第一次我们擦身而过......第一次你吻别人......第一次见证那个吻......第一次...第一次那么激动的想告诉你..我爱你...

这...就是..属于我们的..第一次...你还记得吗?

2009-09-02T03:03:00.000-07:00

Sparkling angel

I believed

You were my saviour

In my time of need

Blinded by faith

I couldn't hear

All the whispers

The warnings so clear

I see the angels

I'll lead them to your door

There's no escape now

No mercy no more

No remorse

Cause I still remember

The smile when you tore me apart

Lunch today,was sitting with Ms Loh and was chatting about hair and gorilla and shit and urine.. Life is getting bore..and bore..and bore and nothing more

所有故事停止

撕开了幸福伪装

双手在我耳边

头又在不停摇晃

我被俘虏多年

且爱上的是上当

谢谢你让我成长

我最爱的那个人

2009-08-31T01:54:00.000-07:00

Teachers' day concert..One word to describe everything--BORE! Okkay,at start,ACES day..Happy happy dance dance jump jump punch punch kick kick..Then recess,didn't eat cause later got party marh..Preparation for party!Sit there talk to Galen,listen to MP3..Concert!Not so fun..The first dance by 4 girls were great..Then not so good.....Alvin sing the 为你写诗 very nice too~
Didn't go back primary school cause I go back there nothing to do also..During party,didn't eat also..-,- Anyway,they got play musical chair,quite fun watching them play..But if play truth or dare then good larh! Can dare them to pluck Hairy-Ass-Gorilla's hair! XP

So,after school,went to watch movie The Proposal with Angie,Rengie and Vivian..That pig cannot go in cause we can't bring outside food(roasted oily pig) in there..just kidding!Cause he going back primary school..Met Mr Yong and his students who are going to watch Up..Mrs Ng watching with them too and the second time we saw them,they're in BK and we're upstairs starring at them haha..Then Mrs Ng was doing some signal which means "We are watching Up, we're not watching Proposal cause got strip,very shy" haha..

Never buy popcorns into cinema..Which means I didn't eat TOO!Anyway,when we're in the cinema,we sit at the last row,the exit door was facing at me..Oh my god..scare sia..haha So me and Vivian move to the front row,I turn my head and see two girls at the last row and one was in red! Like scarely sia haha Saw 3 friends from 2G and they join us,sit together. The Proposal was funny and was laughing and laughing..But there's one part very touching when they girl say "I forgot the feeling of home,the feeling of being love......" That part my eyes were watery..

After movie,went home,and now here I am,still not eaten any meals!(I totally forgot what homework there is..Sombody tell me please?)

P/S:I kicked Aaron during ACES day..ps arh XP

2009-08-30T04:27:00.000-07:00

By the way! I forgot to mention something last post..About Innova JC's principal who damn look like Zhu Ge Liang(not the priest but the taiwan ex actor or sth liddat) Damn funny when she make the speech..Most of the students are laughing! But I think it's quite rude though I'm laughing too XD
Heard from Ms Loh a shocking new..Oh My God!Shock and stun and was all oh my gosh!
Yesterday was sister's birthday..So ya HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY haha..Yesterday very busy..I only ate my breakfast on 4pm!Crazy right?! Morning got BB parade..until 12pm de marh..Then I plan le after BB go home change cloth go NP and still got time to eat..But then delay until 12:30++ so..I rush home,bath,went to NP and it's time for tuition..until 3:30pm then went home reach at 4pm then eat..ke lian hor..

Rabbit Rabbit Rabbit

Was being called by Xiao Bai rabbit cause he say I looka like a rabbit..Rabbit cute what! XP

Songs Changed..Just a few nice songs+songs that make me feel empty or get in to the songs..

爱太痛-everytime listen to this will like so deep in the heart..
说好的幸福呢-feel empty when listen to this
真的-another song which make me feel empty
天空-same feelings apply to this song..
DNA-a very nice song~
传说-nice and touching song

I feel like that la..Don't know you all feel the same not

2009-08-28T02:57:00.000-07:00

COP

Just 3 letters C-O-P! Get COP for chinese compo writing comptition..Those get top 6 most are those top schools de CHINA people lol..That's why..Anyway,I'm not that upset cause my compo was printed on the book which they say"We've printed those very good de compo in the book" muahaha!Very good,mind you!

Quarter Master

Concert Band Quarter Master!I'm incharge of brass~But I don't know what to do..Aiya don't care also..Just slack and get points can already! I'm maybe the Section Leader also..Muahaha!!

Nothing really happen these few days..Just bore..Seriously,damn bore these days..No mood to chiong or revise work too..And..I can't stop thinking about things after EOY..For example short time..and..missing G..something like that..

2009-08-26T00:55:00.000-07:00

It's another Cerrene Ho and Isabelle Leong day~So fun when Ms Ho come to our class and Cerrene was being call as Cerrene Ho..But she's irritated..lol..haha During Lit they prank on Jason!They put yellow string on his hair..Then Cerrene go tell him sia!Then all say don't have don't have..I say"Jason!Don't listen to her!Cerrene!Don't bully Jason la!" lol haha..But then Jason still found the string on his hair..Ben say"Oh my god,you got yellow hair" heh!
B-O-R-E-D! Seriously..STM is worsen..Can't remember what had happen today in school..-,-
During SMART time,was discussing about teacher's day thingy..Never listen haha..Cause I DON'T CARE!! I don't even wanna write msg for lampa de lol..Kana force..><
Was singing and telling Boon this "幸好你有我" lol haha irritate him and his face will gone whiter..
Jason was sitting right infront of me suring lunch..I almost vomit out!It's okkay he sit infront of me..But then he go press his nose then got bi ti come out!*awww*
After school,very fast ran out,At bus stop there's no one but some sec1 people and G..Board the bus..Sit down,G was infront(standing) peep on her..XD Then something happen then stop peeping le..Very sad thing..Almost drop tears....

2009-08-25T03:59:00.000-07:00

During eng,I thought I'll be scolded by lampa BUT!! I didn't~I told I would be scolded for any-how-do the formal letter..But I get 14/20~And a V.GD!!muahaha~so happy~
Didn't wanna write the teacher day message for lampa,but I just did..And I wrote it more nicer than for Ms Loh's..And I didn't indicate my name too..Just lazy..haha
I just can't wait for result of chinese compo writing and result for concert band commitee's assistant's position~haha..Hope can know the position's result this thrusday..But Mrs Ng everytime very slow de leh..
Anyway,I'm going to post something which you might see before..But I just wanna post..=D

Singapore ToTo Pledge

I,The citizen of Singapore,Pledge myself to strike

Regardless of ToTo or 4D

Based on quick pick and system 7

So as to archieve car,cash and condo!

Singapore MRT Pledge

We,The passengers of MRT

Poise ourselves as one united kiasu

Regardless of pregnant women,elderly and little children

To chiong in when the doors open

So as to achieve seats,sleep and rest!

I believe you all have seen this already,but I just wanna post =D If you haven't read,have laugh reading~

HAven't been studying..HOW?!

2009-08-24T04:50:00.000-07:00

Today arh,another asshole day..it's PW again and that zhu is getting irritating..Hate those who think they're the best and they know EVERYTHING! People like lampa and hairy ass gorilla..
No money for food and transport..Lost $50 during BB on saturday..T,T And that danru spoil my earpeice..This month's just not my month..So many bad things happen..

Concert band today,interview to be commitee's assistant(dunno how to spell) Actually was suppose to choose Sec2 to be commitees but the sec3 are going to graduade next year,so need to help them build up CCA points and cause most of them are new(juz join this yr) so they need assistant..Mrs Ng say had chosen 4 people to be in the highest 4 rank,the drum major,band major,2 quater master..The 4 people are Aye Ei,Tong Hui,Ridzuan and me!! Then she ask what you wanna be,I chose quater master and band major..Band major is she choose for me de lol..Anyway,non of the chosen one aboves wanna be drum major,the one who give commands and are master in drills..Need to shout sia..I lazy to shout..XD If possible I want to try concert master,the student conductor XD
I'v got something to post..But I totally forgot what it is..Aiz..Nevermind,wait till i remember then I post...Anyway!!

TSK!ANGIE YAP!HOW COULD YOU!!TSK!

2009-08-23T06:15:00.000-07:00

Bore,Tire,Lazy..Don't feel like going to school anymore cause I don't want to see some Crazy-Hairy-Asshole Gorilla..Didn't do its homework cause my mind is blank..I really hate lampa..Hope he die soon..Curse him..Who cares?!
Damn bore these days..I saw _ like ___ then was like ___ then everything was like ___~
Realise something..

Why are those happy memories stop making me laugh or smile?
Why are those sad memories still making me sad and cry..

And they're making me more and more sad..

淋过雨的空气

疲倦了的伤心

我记忆里的童话

那幸福永远

已经慢慢的融化..

2009-08-22T00:32:00.000-07:00

Songs changed!Just some nice songs by Lin You Jia.Both also nice. STM is worsen day by day..I can't really remember anything happen recently(like yesterday..) All I can remember is Alien Invasion! After English was recess,before we went for recess,got annoucement..Can't listen to what the thing was saying..Then Galen turn to me and say"Only Seann can understand" I laugh hard sia!So bad sia him..'Cause they say Seann look like alien..Then the anoucement sound like alien..Was like alien invaded our school!! XP
Then,there's something that was did by someone which would make me faint!OMG OMG OMG!
Don't want tell you what is it~Bleh! Today get my BB uniform..So troublesome..I don't know how to wear..So complicating..
Gotta start revising for EOY now..I'm still not prepared!Time fly so fast nowadays..Stress out..After EOY is holiday..How?!What should I do?!Grrrrrr..Will miss G..

2009-08-21T00:05:00.000-07:00

Very bore,very emo..I don't know why,this feeling just came..

有时候会突然感到一种莫名的忧伤

没有任何原因

脑子里一片空白

意念没有

影像没有...

Who knows..How hard it is to love someone...

木头对火说:“抱我!”

火拥抱了木头

木头微笑着化为灰烬..

当木头爱上烈火注定会被烧伤…… 　

It's just pretend..

脸上的快乐

别人看得到

心里的痛

又有谁能感觉到. .　

Our fate are just that short..

我和你之间的相遇

就像是流星

,瞬间迸发出的火花

却注定只是匆匆而过..

2009-08-19T03:35:00.001-07:00

Funny things happen today and yesterday though my days were always spoiled by hairy lampa..(sound so weird!) lol..But being with friends were so nice~Angie wasn't in school noth days Galen sit beside me~He also fun and funny to sit with..But today hor! He scold me bastard sia! Cause during literature,the task given was to write down job you want to do when you grow up,Aaron say want to be ____(i dunno wad the words is..but it means gigoloo..which i dunno how to spell oso..) then also need to write down quality he say "BIG C**K!" HA!! what the hell sia sia sia!! Anyway,why Galen scold me bastard?! Cause Galen say Ms Ho looks like Cerrene marh..Then at her back I call Ms Ho Cerrene Ho..So!!When she say write what job you wanna do..And Ms Ho walk to Danru's place,I turn to her and say "I want to be Cerrene Ho" Then Galen laugh and shout "BASTARD!" LOL!!Then Aaron shock and shout"BING HAN!YOU WANT TO BE CERRENE'S HOLE?!" What the hell!! XD XD

嘟鲁鲁鲁鲁~鲁鲁鲁鲁~
爱其实很简单~
嘟鲁鲁鲁鲁~鲁鲁鲁鲁~
就是这样好玩~

Pucca爱Garu~

亲不听,追不听,爱不玩~

Pucca Opening in chinse lyric~I find the song nice but I can't find the chinese version on net..Haiz~

2009-08-17T05:32:00.000-07:00

Rabbit shit for Galen!! JingJing(jw..) gave Galen cookies for his birthday and a note saying"P/S the choclate chips are rabbit shit" LOL!! haha..then he's like ask me worriedly"Is chocolate chips rabbit shit?" haha..he so cute sia..Like really believe is rabbit shit..Then I look at him when he eat the cookie..His face's like this .......!!! haha..I don't know how to say larh..If you can understand that symbols then good for you~Angie's voiceless today~Good and bad..I can talk all I want and nobody will say"Tiam larh!! annah!!" in a high pitch.. haha..But hor..She anyhow hit people de lor!!She can't talk so write words on the paper in chinese"Ask the teacher if I can go toilet" Then she wrote halfway I know what she wrote so I turn to teacher shouting for her then suddenly "PIAK!!" and "OUCH!" was heard..Angie hit me and I shout..What the hell sia..lol
Today quite happy larh..Met new friends in school MUAHAHA!! But hor!! irritated by the Sim Pei Zhu sia!We do PW happily finish most of the things le then he saw other group got the esplanade then wanna copy them lol!!Never even discuss with us first then he tear open the clay de plastic!! Then okkay larh since it is open then do lor..Then after finish the esplanade with ALL OUR HARD WORK he go press the spike sia!!What the f**k?!He's like"never mind never mind" What The FUCK?! And he never listen to others de larh fucking asshole fucker!Go hom suck your oily cock larh! TMD
During science today,totally wasn't listening..Everytime do practical I won't listen de larh..'cause I'm sitting at the back..Can't hear teacher teacher also cannot see me like that so don't care..Especially when it is Ms Lee..So do the data logo thingy with Godwin Peter and Jay Toh Hong Chun AKA The Guy Who Always Wear A Cap..haha 'cause his hair can move marh >3< Peter and HC are idiots!!Stupid conversation had..lol..Quite fun to be group with them..Didn't really talk to Gdowin cause he ignore me when I talk to him..-,- Anyway!!I keep peeping at hunks and beautys using Gerryl's mirror..muahaha!!Then when HC and Peter look into the mirror,I can see PIG sia!Then they say is zao zhu jing..Should let Pei Zhu try it!!
Added old songs to my song lists...
1.I will be
-A song's lyrics quite similar to what happen.....T-T
2.God knows dub
-I don't really know what dub means but this is an english version of god knows~
3.Bitter Orange
-A japanese song's lyrics which I felt similar to the way I felt towards...
4.安静了
-A very nice song which is 百听不厌 =D
5.God knows
-The original version(japanese) also a very nice song~

2009-08-16T02:44:00.000-07:00

Boring sia..Today alone at home do totally nothing..But housework and computer game..lol..See I so guai do housework..>,< Anyway,I've been playing Ether Saga Online which is a creation of Perfect World..Almost same as Perfect World sia..The area's looking are almost the same..But!! Damn stupid larh!! So hard to level up..At first they let you happy do quest only make you up level to 15++ then at level 19 stuck..-,- But I've finally level up to 20 today!! Phew..-,-

2009-08-14T03:53:00.000-07:00

Angie not in school today uhhuh,cause she's sick..galen sit beside me and during mt test,galen keep asking me qtn..so until when he ask me how to write this and that,i pek chek and snatch his qtn paper and wrote words for him..then he stop asking me..he go ask danru and giv her his paper and told her to write ans for him..and he's like so obviously show the ans to aaron by holding the paper behind him!! and yet the teacher did not saw that!!ok?! stupid xu lao kia..anyway..lampa's period is nothing but another scolding..and!!
lampa:what is cloak?it is something like..(pause..)
godwin:cloak
lampa:is something like..(don't know how to say)
godwin:cloak
lampa:something like..(actually he don't know -,-)
godwin:cloak
lampa:is something like..(laugh)

lol haha..then during math..
mr yong:before i go i introduce 3 friends for u all (wrote 3m on board)
someone:michael monyi michelle!!
mr yong:(laugh) who? michael monyi and?
godwin:monster!
bing:monyi monkey monster
galen:(laugh)haha!!eeeyer
and...
mr yong:you all never realise something on tuesday right? i got something very embarrass..
bing:he c**k steam arh
galen:(laugh) C**K STEAM?!serious?!(turn to aaron) he c**k steam arh!!
aaron:(laugh)hahaha!!
danru:what?what?!
aaron:galen say he c**k steam!
danru:what is that?
aaron:(i dunno what he say)
danru:(laugh) ahaha!!
(later...)
aaron:like "doi" like that
bing:(heard what aaron say,turn to aaron) wah lao!! like "doioioi" haha!!(laugh)

haha..then after school,was suppose to go lab but i never..went to causeway point with linda and danru for lunch,then meet with up with ms loh to go ijc for competition and went there..wait wait chat chat blah blah...
bing:ms loh,what is the age distance between your da mei(oldest young sis) and da di(oldest young bro)?
ms loh:__years
bing:(shock) serious?!
ms loh:ya their zodiac are both ___(same)
bing:oh....(laugh)
(pause..)
bing:so you are __years old?!
ms loh:(stare at me..) heng!
bing:(laugh)
(later..)
ms loh:bing han,your zodiac is also dog right?
linda:ya lol,i'm the youngest here!! and ms loh's the oldest!
ms loh:(stare at linda)HENG!(laugh)
bing:(laugh)

don't know really is __ years distance not..ms loh's so old..can't believe it!!anyway..then the ocmpo writing start le!!I dunno how and what to do!! no tittle no nothing!!wait wait wait..think think think..still nothing!! turn and saw other school's people write so many things liao i still got nothing!! lol then like "aha!" then type like crazy mad monkey monster liddat..so wrote a total of..1214 words!!lol crazy mad monkey monster!! im not monkey or monster okkay!!

2009-08-13T03:59:00.000-07:00

School without lampa will be fun~today aaron's place was changed to be seated with monyi~aiya lampa also don't know what he said..stupid..anyway during smart galen suddenly come talk to me saying "if i go sit with monyi for 5 seconds you give me 2 dollar" lol!!crazy arh!!5 seconds only 2 dollar?! then i bargain with him..i say for 20 min 2 dollar..then he say ok..then when he walk there he's like "ewwwww" and run away! damn funny sia..then bargain bargain until i say "you hug her i give you 2 dollar" he shout at me sia xd then stopped..then he turned to me again and ask again..haha..then i say "if you plug her mao,one mao i giv u 10 cent (cox 10 cent in chinese is 1 mao) haha then he say ok arh angie say "mao is not hair hor" haha..should be fur okkay! galen say "ok arh i use cut de" i reply "cannot hor! muz use plug de like 'piak!' liddat" haha XD he damn funny sia~~

I've finally realise what had changes me

it is not the changes around me

it is the insecurity and unprotected i felt

the unloved and uncared by others

these are what changes me..

To become like that,right?

i dunno if 'plug' is the correct word not..juz bear wif it larh hor..

2009-08-11T03:47:00.000-07:00

Back to school..It's been like so long..new classmate in class..his name is bing han!!haha..then the asshole %#&^$&$^* lampa was like &^$%*$^&#^ okkay?!i don't want to emphasize..anyway,today after recess hor,boon was being attack from everywhere!!jingwen attack from the side,jonathan from the front,me and thura from the back..he's dead!haha During math hor,i slap angie..over and over again! cause she holding a scissors..haha!! Then during smart was chatting with danru aaron angie and galen..was all about mao mao and mao!!danru threw aaron's pencil case to monyi's table..then aaron's pencil case grow many many hair! and he bluetooth mao to danru and angie..he say"after 1 hr u go home when u take off your cloth will 'puff' all the black black hair pop out" haha!!!then angie went to toilet aaron say"aiyo so fast go check if gt hair" lol!!! then lampa come in..wa piang he pervert leh!! i saw him peeping from outside..pervert! anyway,kana scolded from him..i think he what sia think got new bing han in class then try to confuse us by keep calling bing han!! he never call me so many times before then today call me so many times!! siao arh?! anyway,kana stay back from smart until 3:30..Many people miss the "monyi-i-want-molest-you" de clap from lampa!! he pervert go do monyi-i-want-molest-you-clap!!at first when he do the clap i thought he finally gone mad..hahawant to know what happen? ask me eh..

收起轻淡的羽翼

只因过于慰蓝的蓝天

让你有点疲倦而已

不必再为他人强颜欢笑

请为自己而快乐

how i hope these apply to me..

2009-08-09T01:51:00.000-07:00

!Happy Birthday Singapore!

Today is singapore's birthday ya?9 august~20 more days will be malaysia's birthday~happy early birthday to malaysia too~

These scattered memories just flash through my mind..I seem to forgot something

Where are those memories?

those i once have

those that once belong to me

where are they?

as i grew up

those happy childhood memories

they are gone..

and was never be found again..

那些遗失的美好...

2009-08-07T02:44:00.000-07:00

Today we've national day celebration..so fun..not "so" but "quite" aaron was crazy!okkay anyway at the start of the day we gathered at hall and aishwarya and aaron was like performing 相声,keep shooting each other,so funny. then they distribute bread and drink,donny say can eat and drink then the lam pa say,"you can eat and drink at the same time" then aishwarya aaron and me laugh and aaron tell aishwarya"do you know your breast will grow if you eat and drink together" and aishwarya slap his arm haha..Then start national day performance..more like nanya school students perform..the first performance is the girl solo dance..then aishwarya tell me,"she should eat and drink together" haha!!you know what that means?! XD so when sing song,aaron was screaming and jumping like a gorilla..-,-
I didn't go kbox cause i sore throat then my parent say don't go next week then go..lol who go with me?ghost arh?!choi! then heard they no go kbox liao..don't know why also

2009-08-06T06:35:00.000-07:00

Finally back to school today..Miss my friends so much..Those China students'here and they're so different from last year's which is more guai guai type..Galen happy till die lol..He took picture with Tora liao..And he zoom to her face and set it as wallpaper..haha Nothing much really happen today..Was coughing throughout the day..-,-

用一双无助的黑白的眼眸

我只是全心全意的

There is nothing I can do for you

那个时候

我为什么而感动

为什么而满足

我自己能够理解吗?

请不要离开我

Please don't go anywhere

不知何时

我不加思索的

说出了伤害你的语言

始终天真

始终伤害你的我

有能要求什么呢?

请不要离开我

Please don't go anymore

Through these black and white eyes

With my heart and soul..

Back then

I was really moved by something

Really content with something

Did I really understand myself?

Please don't leave me

Please don't go anywhere

Since when

Without knowing

I had said somthing that hurt you

Still naive

Still hurting you

What am I supposed to seek from now on?

Please don't leave me

Please don't go anymore

I really miss you..I'm really sorry for what I'v done..Please don't go away..

2009-08-03T20:59:00.000-07:00

4th August,12pm

Been staying at home until now..Nothing to do..Damn bore!!I can't go out!!Too tire..Sick uhh..Haiz..I haven't eaten anything!!I can't decide what to eat!!-,- so I haven't taken my medicine also..'Cause I haven't eat!!What to eat?!vrything taste so bitter..T,T

Bing!Faster get well uhh!!So you can get to see ______ *ahem*

--火与冰--

我是火

你是冰

想用我的火

融化你的冰

但因你太冰

把我这把火

给熄灭了...

A message is hidden in the above poem..There's always a message in poem..But this requir deeper thinking..haha..

I can't type capital letter!!WHY?!

2009-08-03T00:52:00.000-07:00

Maybe I'm just chasing something impossible

I'm sick..Poor me..Today morning took temperature 39.3..So high..I'm so hot that I'm burning up~ XP

世上最美的距离

不是天涯海角

不是生离死别

而是我在你身边

你却不知道我爱你...

世上最美的地方

不是满马努卡群岛

不是大堡礁

而是你在的任何地方...

喜欢你,很喜欢你,一直都很喜欢你,一直躲在你不注意的地方偷偷地喜欢着你

2009-08-02T00:08:00.000-07:00

Currently having fever..High fever as high as 38.9...Don't know got H1N1 not..Kana 6 symtoms out of 8 of H1N1...Fever,fatigue,cough,sore throat,body aches,runny nose..Sometimes got headache also..Good day for Angie bad day for me uhh...

~Happy Birthday To The Above Girl Named Angie Yap An Qi~

2009-08-01T00:17:00.000-07:00

--我们--

在茫茫人海中

我遇见了你

熟悉之后

却因芝麻小事

我们不再沟通

我很后悔

虽你说不在意

却总是冷酷的对我

在茫茫人海中

我遇见了你

但这次

却只是面无表情

冷冷地与对方擦身而过

两个不一样的人

你是火

总是那么有精神

那么有活力;

我是水

总是那么的安静

那么的忧郁

你是花

总是开着鲜美的花

总是那么的开朗;

我是草

总是低着头的草

总是那么的郁闷

火和水

花和草

你和我

两个完全不同的人

火水不容

花草不合

你我不可能

2009-07-31T02:28:00.000-07:00

I felt like crying...

I need some comfort...

From somebody,anybody...

...

I should stop crying into someone's eyes

For that they will only find m a weakling

I should stop expecting anyone will be there for me

For that there is no one there

I should stop..

But I couldn't..

Those that I want..

Just a few comfort words

Just somebody there

Just someone to tap on my shoulder and said"I will be there for you,always"

Is it too much......

我要的明明已经那么的少

为什么连那一点也不能给我..

~难过~

为什么我要让自己那么难过

明明可以过得很快乐

明明不要看着你

就可以过得快乐些

可是为什么

为什么我会在不知觉中

不停看着你

让自己更难过...

Been writing this today in class in every lessons..These are not all..More will be coming..All written by myself,credit to myself,they are copyright..
Been all emo today..Until kickboxing time..It's damn fun...And tuesday,something's gonna happen...

2009-07-30T06:42:00.000-07:00

~爱~

爱让人不自足

爱让人贪心

爱让人不宽容

爱让人自私

爱让人在不知不觉中

越要越多

也让人有"若我得不到,谁也得不到"的意念

爱让人在不知不觉中

产生恨与嫉妒

________________________________________

--玻璃--

我们彼此间就像隔着透明的玻璃

看到的是彼此的身影

触摸到的却只是冰冷的玻璃

_______________________________________

~无所谓~

我无所谓

寂寞却一直掉眼泪

我假装无所谓

才看不到心在碎

Should Stop Expecting Everyone Will Be There For Me

Should Stop Crying Into Somebody's Eyes Which Made Me A Weakling

I was just being over-sensitive...Don't mind me...

2009-07-29T04:59:00.000-07:00

累了，谁来安慰我

拖着疲惫的身体枕在杂乱的单人床

望着那早已熟悉的天花板

没有了那种熟悉的味道

弥漫着孤独的空气

是向往一个人的自由

还是怀念两个人的欢乐

一切都不再重要了

累了，谁来安慰我

谁会用余生来爱我

我又会把余生交给谁

装满了红豆的玻璃杯

却掏空了自己的心

累了，对爱情累了

累了，对期待累了

累了，对守望累了

身体的累只是疲惫

心累了才是折磨是煎熬

不在祈求安慰

因为心已上了锁

而这把锁的钥匙却丢到了海底

累了，谁安慰我

只有不知不觉熟睡的时候

梦里见到曾经的野菊花

梦醒了一切又重复直到累了

才想到孤独

躺在那张不愿整理的单人床

陪伴的只有那只毛毛熊

Saw the Gie Sisters posting those chinese writing made me feel like writing somthing too..=D
So,was watching anime whole day..

就算你们的心胸再怎么宽大

总有一天你们会认为我是个负担

总有一天你们会背叛我,离我而去

那才是我最害怕的事

This was what she said..It really speak out what I feel..I'm just afraid of the day you all will leave me...

2009-07-29T01:53:00.000-07:00

Today,in school,in class,was playing peizhi bought de slimy-green thingy..Look like pi ti liddat..then they say is Jason de..haha..Then gt one marble inside..Then look like inside pi ti gt one pi sai there..omg XD
During SMART,was not doing homework 'cause no homework today,not like yesterday so hardworking XD Then go sit beside Syafei,talk talk..Talk with him very funny sia!Make me laugh like-----!!Then they go do PW near my table there so I go sit with them..Then talk with Syafei,Danru,Aaron and Galen..First talk about ghost..Then don't know why talk about sweet..Then Danru took out the sore throat sweet and gave us one each..It's an extra strong mint..Aaron and Galen couldn't take it..Aaron's face is damn funny!!Then Syafei tell him if you bite it will not be so strong..Then he really go bite sia!!Then 'cause surface area is larger so the taste is stronger..Then his face was like-------!!!Damn funny sia!All was laugh like hell..XD Then he spill it out and drink lot of water..XD Then I've brought extra strong mint de tic tac..So I ask him want to take not,the taste is not as strong as Danru's sweet..Then he really took it..I gave him two somemore..When he put them in mouth his face was------!!!Then he go bite it somemore!!haha..I gave the sweets to Galen and Syafei also..Syafei want more and Galen and Aaron rush and spill it..Haha..was laughing and laughing..Damn funny when you see the two..XD

2009-07-28T03:33:00.000-07:00

Angie Yap
MAD!

lol..Angie was crazy today..She was laughing and laughing in class for don't know what also..

During PE today my shoes spoil..T,T Was playing basket ball..Ms Low was defending me..Then she step on my shoe and !!! And I think nobody realise it..=D

Just about everything is so, right?

In situations where you get bad penalties, there's always the reality of covering them up and faking them

In the era of distorted dilemmas

Even we, pass by each other without noticing

I don't want to just pass by you..I don't want us to just walk pass each other and act like not noticing each other though we've noticed..

Lies

Lies that heal the heart- They exist

But it's a lie that will steal my heart, right?

Lies can heal us..Make us comfort..Make us ease..But they're not true..
When someone lies to you,you heal faster..But when you realise they lied,you will felt more deep and empty,more sad..

A love lost in this city

If I search for its meaning

Will I become a little better and be able to move on?

2009-07-26T08:12:00.000-07:00

I run past you with a thirsty heart.
Sorry, I couldn't do anything
you won't even let us
share our pain with each other.

In order to live purely
I face your back and leave without turning back.
on the lonely rail

I'll follow you.
No matter where you are in the darkness of this bitter world
you will shine,
and exceed the limits of the future.
To prevent your spirit from being broken because of your weakness
you converge with my way.
Now, God win us...

I send my now passionate feelings
they melt reality, then just hover there suspended.
There's no reason for me wanting to see you.
I pour my feelings into you, lovin' you

Let's at least imagine only beautiful dreams,
as we chase after them
for your lonely heart

Stop it, lying isn't like you.
Look into my eyes and let's speak of what will be.
I'm prepared
even for a bleak future.
Become strong and you might even be able to change fate, you know.
Though I want my wish to be granted,
God knows everything...

You're here, and I'm here
all the others have disappeared.
By sketching the beauty of our fleeting dream,
we're just tracing our scars
So, I'll follow you.
No matter where you are in the darkness of this bitter world
you will shine,
and exceed the limits of the future.
To prevent your spirit from being broken because of your weakness
you converge with my way.
Now, God bless us...

This is a japanese song named "god knows"..Everytime listen to it will like so nice~And..don't know how to express arh..The part where she sings "stop it" there..I'll be like kind of stun..'cause stop it in japanese is "yamete" and everytime in an anime when one sacrifies himself for others there'll be crying and shouting "yamete" Somtime is very touching..XD Go listen..is very nice..

Happiness doesn't last long

Even when you're feeling happy now

Just one breaking new can make you sad

And this feeling last long..

It tooks me so long to realise this and understand what it means..Happiness really doesn't last long..Even if you're happy now,something pop out and you will feel sad..And this will last long..It will follow you forever..

_________________________________________________________

How can I miss it when it's right infront of me?

A fast recap of what I've done..

Saturday,

Went KTV in SAFRA..First time went KTV in Singapore..Okkay okkay larh..Nothing much..*yawn* XD
Sunday,

Grandma's BIRTHDAY!!Happy birthday ah ma!Went back Malaysia to celebrate..Damn many people there..and many un-seen-before-faces~And some other Singaporean cousins are back here to celebrate also..Then got one cousin come talk to me about school in Singapore..And wanted me to tranfer to her daughter's school 'cause she say I can do it..The school is River Valley..She say that school no need take O level but straight away took A level de..I'm still thinking..I couldn't bear to leave 2I people..T,T But I sure can't get in de larh..It's not like I'm very smart like that..>,<

Childish Ah B is playing water gun!!haha..funny sia she..So old already go there still play child's play thingy..XD

Monday,

Skipped Concert band and went to Boon Tien's house today..Play Crimsom something and Doom I think..Don't know the name uhh..And!!Koei Wan is damn damn funny!And!!Bt's father is funny and nice..haha XD KW and BT was like keep saying "Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreast Milk!" LOL!!When we go buy milk tea KW say go buy breast milk tea..wa liu..haha funny XD

__________________________________________________________

Maybe happiness was never meant for me

Aiyo aiyo..Got 4 people know who I like ler leh..Was like keep asking if it's true..Okkay..It's TRUE..okkay..?I think the person hate me very very much..Haiz~

2009-07-24T04:31:00.000-07:00

Today went bowling with some classmates and Mr Yong..Damn damn damn fun!!Was like laughing all the way..But Angie like emo emo like that..Don't know why also..The most ___ parts is when it's my turn,Rengie and Pawandeep come block me and pull or drag me and I can't throw the ball then Rengie call Jingwen,who always throw to longgang,to throw the ball and I've score a 0-0!!!Oh my god!!But very fun..>,<
After that went park play..That time I started sian diao liao 'cause of something someone said to me..Then I broke my leg..Not broke larh..But muscle damn pain de..Nobody care also..Then play swing with Aishwarya and Jingwen was beside us and then came Peizhi..I irritated by one asshole guy so I scream like crazy monkey then I stopped 'cause those northland students was looking at me..Then Peizhi say 床前明月光..So I gone mad again..I scream this..

床前明月光,

沛志脱光光,

抬头看nehneh,

低头看堆草,

草里有条虫,

虫有两颗蛋,

蛋里多科蚪!

Lol haha..Then went to find Aish's wallet,then buy ice-blended..Don't know why today's taste so bitter..And sandy somemore..Sandy means like eating sand like that..
I hate that annoying and irrtating person whom I hate and can't stop thinking about..The one who make my life difficult..asshole...
(Sorry to those whom I scolded with vulgraties..'cause I feel not good that time..When I not happy I scold vulgarities for no reason..XD)

2009-07-23T06:20:00.000-07:00

Just a recap of what I've done today...=,=
Today~In school,first period is CME,Ms Low teaching us..Then need to read poem and pen down thoughts..Nothing much to talk about this..'cause almost the same..but I wanna say something shuay about Michelle..可怜的美仪啊~What happen?Later I'll tell...
After CME is science,nothing much..just some usual things like teach teach talk talk laugh laugh..Was day dreaming sometime..XD
After that is Home Econ!Didn't finish the experiment 1&2 de worksheet!!How?!No time to chiong le!!Die die!!However!!天助我也~Teacher's collecting at the end of the lesson and the practical today spend a lot of time waiting for the fruits..SO!!"Brorrowed"worksheet from Rengie and started copying~Ms Linda don't know 'cause she say while waiting we have to fill up the experiment 3 worksheet..So maybe she thought I was writing the work..haha~Alas I've finished~But was damn tire and busy..Seann was there eating the apple while I've to rush the worksheet and check the timing..What the hell...
Then is recess~Damn tire also!! I went to canteen..Wah~No people~Hurried buy chicken chop and happily walk to where we're suppose to sit and Rengie was there look sad..Her wallet's with me and therefore can't buy food~('cause during Home Econ she told me to help her keep..)Then 'cause is my fault didn't return her..So I help her buy food lol..Then very long Q..Finally my turn and Danru told me to help her buy..Okkay..So I help her bought also..Then was like oh my god..Why so hot today!!'cause I was like keep running here and there..I don't think two cups of bluberry can help that..T,T
It's art now!!Mdm Lim's talking craps again~Galen's taking off shorts again~Godwin's acting funny again~Syafei was the only one who did nothing similar today~He raise up his uniform,showing his tummy/muscle and was like keep touching himself like自恋~haha
Then is math~Got test you know!!Damn easy de larh!!The most easy test ever~Hope can score full marks..We cheated!!I did not okkay!Haha..I've finished the paper and Aaron asked me how to do the last qtn..I don't know how to tell him the working 'cause very long~Danru also asked me the same qtn~So,I wrote it on the book which Mr Yong give us back while doing the test and throw it to Aaron~Then Danru was fighting for the book with Aaron..Haha..There're qtn Danru don't know and have to ask me also de hor!!Then Aye Ei sit on far right on me..So I shout at her"What's the ans for qtn 6?!"'Cause the class is quite noisy now so I shout..Mr Yong didn't hear also..She said is 8.something..I ask her how she get..She didn't tell me..Then I told her mine is 7.8..Then she don't believe..'cause her math better than me what..But after the test she realise she's wrong and I'm correct!!Muahaha!!
It's chinese now~Went to MT room to play the game~Then very fast chinese lesson over and is lunch..Don't care~Stay there with Angie Rengie Peizhi Jingwen Boontien to play the game~Then don't have play much also..Just chat when Pawandeep and Aish came in..Talking about Jason gone wild in class..haha..They irritated him..So he throw everything and pick up a paper on flour and asked"Whose's this?!" Deep say is Peizhi's then he T-O-R-E it!But the paper is actually Michelle's CME worksheet!!Shuay ah Michelle..lol
Then is SMART..Doing the card paper..then go do the math..Don't know how to do!Don't understand also!So go and ask Galen..'cause he said he learnt till chap 10 already..Wah~One explain everything clear sia~haha..Then he proud larh~lol haha
Then is concert band..Actually wanna skip de..But before I ran I met Ben..(I don't know how to spell the full name!)And saw Mrs Ng also..No choice lol..Go liao~Then was tidying the room..Mr Tey very what leh!He took my credit!I clear the saxophone's cupboard and he said he did that!LOL!Then F horn's senior came back today~And was joining us in playing~It has been a long time since another F horn player play with me..haha..Then after practise we're to clear up our files..'cause the last time senior ah!Very irresponsible de..Everything just throw in..So we need to tidy up..Then before tidying,before the senior went home,they plaed with Yizhen..Damn funny de larh!After they stepped down it has been so long since I laugh in band for so long..haha..Miss those old time..Especially the time when Myrah touched Yizhen's breast..haha..
Kay..gonna end here..

The pretty Tonghui's pic after SYF that day..=D

2009-07-22T07:08:00.000-07:00

Today,suppose to have Solar Eclipse BUT because of rain and cloud,nothing is seen..haha..None of my business too,I must say..'cause we stay in class can't see also~
In class today,during Literature,was talking about forehead..haha..didn't take the pictures of Mr Sim's drawing..Especially the one on Angie Yap!haha..That one arh..I tell you super funny arh!Anyway,got CCA detention today..From 3 to 6..lol..Quite boring I must say..Nothing to do..Wasn't allow to listen to mp3..T,T However,the Mr Terrance quite good leh..We chat for about one hour to kill my time there..He taught me lots of things about life AND I've complain many things to him..School and Teachers thingy..ha!You all out there sure can guess is what and who de larh~
Koeiwan always asked me the same question..so I told her today..Don't know how she felt about my answer also..Then Rengie also know liao..lol..
I've just finished one of the quiz in facebook and I thought of telling here..The quiz is "What legendary beast are you?"My answer is werewolf and it says that I like to provoke people~So true sia~Everytime provoke people..The BEST person to provoke is none other than...Angie Yap An Qi!Haha..Everytime I provoke success de larh!Won't fail to provoke her de I tell you if you go and try..haha

不停的对自己说，下次吧下次吧，下次一定要好好表达自己的心情...

却没有办法不考虑如果被拒绝了，会不会连朋友都做不成...

他恐惧这种情况，他不敢想象有朝一日他们会冷淡著面孔擦身而过...

2009-07-21T03:58:00.000-07:00

Pale broken wings,
you're just a little tired
from the sky which is too blue
Don't do it for anyone else
Just smile for yourself

loneliness is still creeping up,
A candle lit up inside
totally incompatible with a splendid, bustling party

The hollowness of
the absence of your words, is it ok just to bury them?
I still don't know

At least within dreams
If I can swim freely even if there isn't anywhere like that,
Even if everything until now is forgotten,
Even if I can face tomorrow...

Pale broken wings,
you're just a little tired
from the sky which is too blue
Don't do it for anyone else
Just smile for yourself

The peacefulness of inferiority
won't come true so simply
Settling above your self consciousness
A petal reflected by a mirror

Straining my lungs,
tryin' to call dirtied love,
however, it's so frustrating

As times are passing
My wounds are cursed
My scabs are changed
You haven't got that
So beautiful
Yet so short lived

After the scabs fall off
Just like the newer, shorter hair near the scar
My prayer are shaking in the bright light
I won't forcibly
try to love you...

Sometimes, in this world
When we try to walk ahead,
it's a little too bright, isn't it?
It's like we're sinking
When we feel like giving up,
the dry land sucks up our tears

Why do we feel so alone anytime?
We don't have to take it all, you know
Why do we feel so alone anytime?
Simple refrain isn't courage

Starting off this post with a song lyric named "alones" by aqua timez..It's a japanese song, this is a translation to english lyric~Like I said,doesn't japanese song have nice lyric?!

Today,when singing the national song and school song right,I keep starring at Jason..lol~'cause I don't like him..It's just not fair..The Mr Singh!What the hell?!Yesterday when singing right,I place my thumbs on the table,BUT MY HANDS' STILL BY MY SIDE,then the ahem come scold me..like wtf?!Jason everyday also hands' not by the side..WTH?!Mr Singh also saw him not hands by side but Mr Singh's still digging his own nose!Oh?!I put my hands under my armpit mean my hands by my side?!I dig my nose mean my hands by my side?!Oh I See!Thank You Mr Singh! C-H-E-Y!

Anyway~today during English lesson we need to come out with ideas about the compo tittled "you do something against your will" and the Angie Yap keep repeating the same thing"大哥大叫我抽烟,我不要,他打我,我不要,他打我,我不要,他打我..."lol!funny sia..haha I was like keep laughing non stop!Then 'cause Danru was not feeling well,I discussed with Angie and Aaron..Then I told Aaron"Come school everyday 看到那团黑黑毛毛的东西is against my will" Then all was like laugh lol..Angie really wrote that on paper..Several times somemore..haha

Today during SMART Ms Leow良心发现you know!!We are late for SMART yet she gave us half an hour FREE PERIOD!!Wah!So good!So I chiong my math homework and handed in when Mr Yong came in~haha~Then I ran away~During science we also talk about Sun Eclipse and Lunar Eclipse~Ms Leow teaches us for awhile,then talk about Sun and Lunar Eclipses and then she started showing some of her pictures..haha.,Then got talk about Math DURING SCIENCE!Ms Leow's math not lose to Mr Yong okkay!
Ending post now~haha..No picture to end today..Got one nice picture to post..but the person don't allow..sad sia..next time bah~haha

2009-07-18T18:03:00.000-07:00

Bad mood..From yesterday night till now..Did something really hurtful to somebody..Very guilty..Hurt him too much..Cannot face him..He won't forgive me..I'm dead..Don't know how to face him also..He also don't want reply my messages..He sure hate me to the core..
I've lost quite lots of things yesterday..feeling low..There don't seem to have anything in this world for me to live on..Nothing support me to continue to live..I THINK I've lost my good friend..And I'm very sure I've lost the one I love too..
History like this keep repeating..I sick and tire of it..Maybe I'll just die for the sake of not hurting anyone anymore..

No use saying anything..

Nothing helps..

Talking to you also..

It won't make me any better..

Sad..

Dying inside..

My dying speed is increasing..

Increasing everytime with my heart beats..

Everytime when I see or think of you..

I'm dead

2009-07-18T03:34:00.000-07:00

Nothing much today actually..Everyday also nothing much..haha..met a new friend online..chat for awhile then he angry 'cause I say him unfair..>,< align="center">给你的

为什么你总是那么吸引我？

你的脸孔，你的神情；

甚至你的一举一动。。。

这些我都看在眼里；

只要淤泥相关的事情，

我都知道，都记得一清二楚。。。

虽然知道自己配不上你；

但却无法停止去喜欢你；

我承认我笨，笨得无可救药；

可是你知道吗？

暗恋一个人，真的好累。。。

累得我好像希望这一切都没有发生过；

好想把这一切都忘了；

忘了你，忘了你的一切。。。

但是我办不到。。。

I thought this poem is very nice,so post it..Sound like me also~haha

Haiz..Sometime I will just think that..I'm very different from you all ordinary people..Negatively different..More similar to Jason that type of people..Different in a retard way..Not in a special way..You won't know,unless you really knows me..Then you will avoid me like how you avoid Jason..Even when you see me you will be eeeyer-ing..I'm hiding the truth,the truth about myself..So that I can be seen as "normal"..But I'm not..I'm just retard..

Do you know..

When we're still a child,

everything was so simple..

what is 5+4?
You can just simply count it using your fingers..

However,
When we grew up,

things are not as simple as they seem to be..

And you will realise that the things close to you can't help you anymore...

Can you calculate 5X4 using your fingers?

Heh!Came out this by myself~Seem so true you know~XD

Ending off with this...

2009-07-16T22:57:00.000-07:00

Nothing to talk about today..just went to Northpoint after school to buy "sand ice" hehe..OH!I saw Yan Pin in Northpoint!LOL!She grow pretty liao orh!And Angie Rengie and Vivian go watch Aish cut hair..lol..like what..3 people stand there silly silly look..lol

Our Story

Once in a class,there's this person name B,and another name G...

They don't know each other even when they're in the same class,B had never notice G.

However,one day,B noticed G,and was attracted to her charm.

Everytime,B will try and get close to G,but G know nothing at all.

Then,B talk to G..And slowly,they became friends..Very good friends.

Another day..Fate has turned..

This stupid mistake of B made G angry with him,forever..

After what happen,G never talk to B again..

B will just sit at the back of the class,watching G..

Because G never talk to B again,B's feeling for G grow..and grow..and grow..from 'like' to 'love'...

B tried to talk to G like how they use to be,but G ignore him everytime..She even avoid him..

B was upset..And everytime he see G,his heart will felt a deep empty..

One night,B sat on his bed,thinking about time with G..

He cried...

Then he took a bottle..

B called G..

B:Hi..You know something..?

G :...

B:Haiz..I..I like you..Since the very first day I see you..I was attracted to you..I..I love you..

G:...
*doooo*
G hang up the phone..

B's tear fell..

B took out the bottle,open it and take in lots of sleeping pills..

B lied on his bed,closing his eyes..and smile for the last time..

B:I'm glad that your voice will be the last I hear..

2009-07-16T03:24:00.000-07:00

Hie!!haha~Been active this few days~Non-stop blooging~Muahaha~Kind of "addicted" to posting quiz..lol..SO!!I'm here posting ANOTHER QUIZ!Also try to tranlate larh..
Eight colours to test you EQ LEVEL!!
Qtn:If you wear a red hat,which accessory's colour will your wear?
A.Red B.Grey C.Blue D.Green E.Yellow F.Purple G.Brown H.Black

A)You are full of live and passionate.You are full of hope toward life,hoping to move toward success.You are not afraid of failing and will stand up and move forward!

B)You value the task given to you and won't push it to others.You try to finish it even if it is tough.Your taste and principle are very different from others.However,sometime yo uare lack of consideration.

C)You are a pratical person.You often participate in the activities you like and will take action in them,but you are not good in leadership.You must be careful not to just concentrate in activities and forget about your life quality which will cause your love ones to leave you!

D)You are curious about new things.To friends,you are emotion and are over warm hearted.When helping others,sometime people will feel like you are kepo and make people angry.You enjoy nature and suit to travel.

E)You emphasize on "face",so you work hard to archeive.Success always come around you.You are full of hope in life and are happy-go-lucky type of person.You can influence others,but don't have planning ability,must listen to others more!

F)You like challenges and excitement!You know how to show your charm at the right time!You are a curious person.

G)You emphasize on dignity and fame,used to moving on in the ordinary life.You are genrous,you won't critisize on your friends mistake.You are a secure,ordinary,trust-worthy and honest person!

H)You are rational.You like to help other,but many dreams of yours can't be full filled.You try to do something to cover up those un-done dreams.You are born to accept your fact,so be serious about your work now!

haha..so true..I choose black uhh..lol
I'm going to blog about G&B story later okkay~

SO!!Today during art right..Mdm Lim was talking and talkng for almost 1hr NON-STOP!So,we all sit around the table and listen to her nagging..I sit beside her,facing all the others.Syafei and Galen sat on my top left hand side..THEY HOR!!WAS LIKE OH MY GOD!They took off their shorts and stood up when Mdm Lim was not facing them and Mdm Lim knows nothing about it!They're like showing off their boxers sia..And when Mdm Lim walk away,they walk around the class wearing boxers!LOL!
And!During Home Econ today,we do experiment about eggs~lol~Funny eh..Oh by the way I group with Sean and Aish~

Sample A,named BaBa~(A stand for Aishwarya!)

Sample B,named BiBi~(B stand for Bing!)

Control,no name..(C stand for C-yawn!(pronounce as Sean))
!
Peizhi and Danica's egg!The head break and the brain(egg yolk) blow out!

This thing is found at the back of the class~

Hey!Inside got my name you know!Muahaha

2009-07-15T03:21:00.000-07:00

This is what happen between a father,who is a pokey ninja from Earth-f, and his daughter,a da nehneh ninja from Mar-s...
R:Omg!This is stupid!>,<
B:lol!You lah!STUPID!>,<
R:What the heck!你这个不孝子! )x
B:You gt problem with differenate gender is it?-,-"
R:Ohhhh,you no kuku!不孝"女"!!!!哈!!
B:lol!see me use da nehneh knock you eh!>,<
R:Squeeze your nehneh lah!:D
B:I call Mars here den u know!
R:Oi!Don't forget where you are now!EARTH-E!My planet,you Marsian!X,X
B:I don't know EARTH-F give birth to Mars!HA!
R:Your BoonTien mama carry you out from the MArsian hospital instead of EARTH-E hospital!
*You better leave earth or we are on war!:D*
B:You hiu-men dare to chey-leng us MARSIAN?Pre-pair to die!DA NEHNEH Attack!
R:*Squeezeing your nehneh*Pain?Surrender la!Wahahaha!
B:AH!Molest!Daddy squeezing my NEH!
R:War time!No time to talk about亲情啦!不要乱认人leh!XD
B:WTH?ACID MILK ATTACK!
*SQUEEZE!MILK SHOOTING OUT!*
R:I am fully prepared,okay!XD
*Open BoonTien's umbrella :D*
B:Da mimi's unbrella's no use for this!NEH BOMB!
*NEH drop out and "BOOM!"*
R:You no more nehneh on left side ah!Only right side got nehneh!
B:HA!It'll grow nack very fast!LEFT SIDE NEH GROW,CUP D 34!
*With a doi sound and the NEH pop back!*
(To be continue!)
LOL!haha..funny arh..did this during SMART..We wrote it on a paper..Rengie tell me to post the picture..But the picture show the words not clear leh..so I wrote out..MAybe I'll give Rengie the paper and she'll post on her blog..
One more thing!RENGIE NG IS A DAMN SMART AND CLEVER GIRL,OKKAY!

Saw this quiz on Rengie's blog..So I tried it out~
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Not so true on many parts leh..I'm not straight-forward person,I don't think I'll commit as soon as I met the right one..I'm not a pratical person and I've NO confidence in my future..I'm neither mature nor honest..AND!Am I flirty?Am I seductive?Any opposite sex find me attractive?No No and NO!lol~

These parts are true~I THINK I am an efficient problem solver..I THINK when I'm in love I'll do anything and everything to keep my love true..I want to study hard and learn..WANT only..lazy to try hard..I'm afraid of things that I can't control and I'll show anger to hide the feeling..I am reasonable and give people good advise as much as I can~And!My heart need solution more than my head!!That's important..haha

Think I'll end this post with...

He's Wilbur..So I,Charlotte,form the words"SOME PIG" using my web~haha!!XD

2009-07-14T02:12:00.000-07:00

Nothing much to post about today..SO!
Here's the quiz again~To test what is the colour of your SOUL!Think I try to translate to english better..

Qtn:You and your friends went to explore in a mountain,suddenly there came fog.After the fog,you found that there's only you left.You are shock,surprised and scared.Then came a fairy and said,"You can only choose one of the items to help you." Which would you choose?
A)mirror B)orange C)apple D)seedling E)bird F)pumpkin G)crystal ball

A.Soul Colour:White
-You are pure,promising,idealogy.White soul know how to bear pain and take the big picture into consideration.When you are young,you tried to hide your talents as you have too many talents and merits,which is a burden for you.You are also very understanding,you are well-like by your relatives and friends.From their logic, points of view and ways of handling things,anything will become clearer once they reach your hands.

B.Soul Colour:Yellow
-Sun-like yellow soul is always the sun among the group.As you can control your smile or tears,you always make other ease.However,behind the smile,you have another form of yourself where people don't know.

C.Soul Colour:Red
-You are out-going,active,strong dominate(direct translate..),borned enthusiastic and you like to be master of yourself.Anywhere that have you,the place will be full of live and extraordinary atmosphere.You have strong needs and desire for love.To the things and person you like,you have strong attacks to them.Red soul's characteristic are sometime like thunder storm,come fast and go quick.Try to slow down your moving pace(as in your life) and you might live happier.

D.Soul Colour:Green
-You are generous,strong self-control,desire for freedom but afraid of losing control.You like to take care of others,whether in daily life or in diet,even your thoughts and 人情世故上应对进退,you think that a set of laws or rules are needed.As a smart person,you can be a peace maker when needed to.

E.Soul Colour:Blue
-Clever and full of 交际手腕,blue soul present the most noble character ever.You always know what you want to do and you can repress your emotions in order to archeive what you want.Sometime this will also cause you to feel depress because under your humourous,deep in your heart,you feel lonely which was unknown by others.

F.Soul Colour:Orange
-You have strong intuition which cause you to wander between happiness and anger.To your senses' provoke,you are more sensitive than other soul colours.You can express your deep thoughts and feelings.

G.Soul Colour:Purple
-Purple soul is a sensitive and painstraking person.You can understand those new fashion things and things with soul.At a young age,you have the thoughts of leaving your house,or even tried to escape from reality.You are interested in things which are going to happen in the future.You hav too many thoughts and comprehend which cause you to have hard tim expressing your questions about emotion.This will cause you to be pulled down from top to the very deep down below.You always make your soul wander between heaven and hell.

haha~Quite zhun la..I'm purple soul..Other than fashion style,the others are all zhun nah~!

Nothing much to talk about today..so talk about personal thingy..There's this boy in the class whom I kind of curious about.Don't guess..You'll never guess correct,okkay!And don't ask me arh..I won't tell..Anyway,he hor today in bus say I noisy 'cause I'm talking to Syahidah mah..Then I was like okkay..Then I quiet..guai mah..Then when bus reach interchange,when I'm waiting to go down,I saw him looking at me..lol..Everytime he look at me I'll smile at him de marh..But this time I stare at him..I DON'T KNOW WHY ALSO!Maybe 'cause this time no one take bus with m I kinda sad..Anyway!He seems to wanting to tell me something but I ignore..LOL!Anything arh..
Today!During SMART period we go to lab!Then do experiment..

My experiment~=D

Gerryl taking pic with experiment~

The other groups~

Me and my x-pa-li-man!(pronouce as experiment~)

Final product of the experiment!(Do wrong liao de!Who cares?)
Ending off with this!!

JASON!!haha..
Jason sit infront of me,then I took out my handphone and call,"Jason!" Then he turned his head,blinking his eyes..Then "CLICK!" this pic came out~haha~
SCREAM ALL YOU WANT,ANGIE~

2009-07-13T05:34:00.000-07:00

Today in school,nothing much..kind of kana scolded by Ms Loh today..'cause I didn't do the compo marh! LOL! Anything..in school today bore..kind of angry with Angie's tone today..Oh!Talk about Angie I'll remember the "Somebody think they cut bangs very cute arh" from Mr Singh..LOL!lmao~I was like laughing and laughing when he said that..Anyway,during lunch time I stayed in class and then...
Galen:Why you don't want go eat?
Me:Why must I?
Galen:You want see us master bed arh?
Me:ya..ya..
Galen:Lol~
Then they(Aaron,Galen,Syafei) set up the visualiser(don't know how to spell lah!) and start master bed infront of it..And!!That was when Angie comes in..She was like stunned and with oh-my-god expression..lol~Then she stayed for a while with her junk food..and say"I think I know what they're going to do..I better go out and eat.." haha..
After some guys came back to class,they all started to play catching..Then Galen sit beside Angie and said something and went around screaming(like pawandeep that kind..) 'cause the catcher is after him..LOL!
After school went to Northpoint with Vivian Peizhi and the Gie sisters..Angie buy so many things to eat..lol!She like don't know what leh..I buy the ice blended right,then she was like "Buy for yourself to drink only huh.." lol!Ah bu den buy for who?!haha..actually I know what she means..But I buy her curry puff what!She didn't even give me sushi!
Oh oh!!My new bag attract attention sia!Rengie Peizhi and Danru was like keep wanting to carry my bag..I was like so xing fu like got people want to carry my thing..My shoulders are so shu fu~XD
And and!I've joined many thingy liao lorh~I'm son;I'm eh-li-en;I'm the da nehneh ninja~
I'm the sone of Rengie Ng(dad) and Cheng Boon Tien(da mi mi mum)
I'm eh-li-en f-lom Mars-s who s-tey in Earth-f
I'm Da NehNeh Ninja from Ninja Family which includes Toh Jing Wen,the Nelly Ninja,Rengie Ng,the Poker Ninja and Angie Yap,the GG Ninja!
LOL!! Da NehNeh Ninja..Cup D 34..LOL!!haha..jing wen say de..lmao

Ah~Heard that you're injure..Sad sia..Breaks my heart you know..How I wish I could be there with you..I want to show concern to you..But I just couldn't speak out(or message..)

2009-07-11T22:27:00.000-07:00

Quiz!!!(Chinese de)
damn zhun de lah!!

你在几岁才会变成熟呢??

1)当你觉得冷的时候,房间里面还开着冷气,你会...

A)关冷气--1分 B)穿外套-2分 C)其他方法-0分

2)你喜欢在食面(noodle)里加半生熟蛋吗(half boil egg)?

A)喜欢啊-1分 B)不喜欢-2分 C)随便啦-0分

3)你喜欢的水果..

A)奇异果-1分 B)芒果-2分 C)苹果-0分

你拿几分?

0-2分:你很现实,真正成熟的年龄在15-17岁.你对于科幻的东西

都有种厌倦或是不可能的态度,不管你朋友说想要什么,你都有

自己的主见,对任何事物都有一定的要求.

3-5分:你属于幻想派,你常有"如果能怎么样就更好咯!"之类的想

法,而你真正成熟的年龄是在18-21岁之

间.你喜爱美好的事物,但常会把事情搞砸噢!

6分:你是属于比较文静的人,而你真正成熟的年龄在17-19岁之间.

属于没有主见型的你又稚气,幸好

可爱还是你特点之一.

我4分咧!准啊!!!

你对爱的渴望程度有多高?

Q:如果你从来没有买过音响组合,你想在短期内布置一套,你会

买怎样的?

A)小型的床头音响

B)大型的音响组合

C)手提音响组合

D)将小喇叭接上随身听

A:你是个保守的人,自我意识极强.要你真正地享受爱情,就像叫

你"以身试法"似的,对方

要花很多工夫,才能取得你!你对要"身体力行"的爱情没有兴趣,

你会比较喜欢沉醉于对方

的亲密关系.

B:你对于生活是采取我行我素的态度,所以对爱情也不例外,不

会为了别人的眼光而改变

自己.你非常懂得享受爱情,也爱选贪求新鲜刺激的人做伴侣.

但是,过分容易与人发生感

情关系是危险的事!

C:表现上你是乖乖孩,但实际上内心充满叛逆大心态,有时

甚至做出令人意想不到的事!

D:你热爱家庭的人嫌热爱爱情生活,是个极度需要爱情的人!

而占有欲呀极强,假如一旦

拥有爱情,你便要独享他的全部,所以每每成为伴侣的负担!

如果这样的事发生,你边要正

视对方的需要,跟他多沟通!

我是C哦!满准的..想叛逆..=D

Okkay!!Accurate not? haha..Still left one which I'm gonna post later or some other days 'cause that one's too long..I lazy to type now XD
SO!!I found a handsome guy leh!!Very Very Very CUTE!!

Very very very kawaii leh this guy!!oh my god..haha..he looks like those anime guy..those anime 3D model that kind ah..gong-a(公仔) haha..XD

2009-07-11T06:20:00.000-07:00

I lay my sight at you since I first saw you..
I can't forget you..
You keep appearing in my mind,
Ever since I first saw you..
After I had seen you for once..
I can't forget you..
Seriously..
Haiz..
I want to hug on you..
I want to have you..
I MUST have you!!!
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Wahhah!!I've you now!!

Oh my god..you are so beautiful..T,T(tears of joy of your beauty..)

Muaha!!I finally bought a new bag!!It had been ages since I want to change a bag!!Everytime I would go to Northpoint to see the bags..But I can't afford..or can't find nice de..But now I've got one~ON NEW BAG!!!WAHAHA!!And it's such a beauty!Damn nice looking de larh!!Love At First Sight =D

2009-07-10T00:51:00.000-07:00

Wah today crazy uhh..after school in class stayed until 2..lol waiting for boon's group to do science project..'cause vivian's helping them..I need borrow money from vivian so need to wait for her..=,= Then while waiting peizhi and boon was playing like don't know what seh..See these..Enjoy..

You see they're holding hands at start!

The Lame Fight...

My God!My nicest handwriting ever okkay!

Don't mention your name infront of me..I've started to dislike you..or even hate you..Slowly I will hate you like don't know what~
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I know..I'm lying to myself..I know I like you..I force myself not to think of you..I told myself to hate you..But even if I say that..I can't lie to my heart..
Secretly wrote this on board and took pic of it in class today..=D No one realise this~These words are for you~

2009-07-09T06:16:00.000-07:00

I KNOW I'VE JUST CHANGE MY BLOGSKIN!!Haiz..'cause I can't decide to use this or the eternity one..so i tried out both!!Muahaha!!And I've change my link..'cause suit the skin what!!haha..XD I haven been posting for days I guess..So here I am..blogging..Yesterday Angie didn't come school leh..then only me in class alone..So bored sia..no one to say "tiam" or "what" when i say "angie,jiao shuang!" LOL!!!Okkay..anyway..MY NAME IS MARS U KNOW!not the当我们宅一起that guy..I come from Mars..and I met one human from Earth and one..liliputian(小矮人) from Pluto you know! haha..XD
Oh oh!!Since school reopen hor..that stupid big-breast-siao-cha-bo-mum(boon) keep hit me de lor!动不动就要拿藤条!我还拿家法打扁你大米米咧!LOL!
This week after school I everyday go bus interchange change bus..'cause I hope to meet this "person" there..the "person" this week like everytime go northpoint..then yesterday I 假假 go northpoint walk walk..with rengie and vivian..then I saw the "person" there..Then like the "person" walking towards bus interchange marh..I also walking toward that side right behind the "person"..then the "person" purposely walk straight into th northpoint..I think the "person" is trying to avoid me uhh..

2009-07-07T03:26:00.000-07:00

today we have this cakeyologic thingy which i dunno how to spell the name and am lazy to check..den one class seperate to four group..egg and eggless,flour and flourless..I'm in flourless de..flour and fourless group do in one rm,egg and eggless in another rm..omg!!while waiting for the cake to be baked..boon was playing with jw and kw who was like oppsite us so much..cox they're in the other rm!!anyway..i group with boon mah..den our cake was like the NICEST OF ALL THE OTHERS AND ATTRACT ALL ATTENTION FROM ALL PEOPLE AND EVERYONE KEEP SNATCHING OURS TO EAT!!
HA!!here's some pic..

muahaha!!the cake we,the flourless team made!!

lol!the cake me and boon made..all say look like fried eggs Muahaha!

Yesterday went amk hub with shan and tee..Was suppose to watch ice age but full..den watch tranformer..hehe..sooooo pervert..!!XD At mrt there with shan waiting for the always-late-tee i saw a siao cha bo looking girl whose name is RENGIE NG!Lol her hair's like juz run off from mental hospital de larh..XDXD!!rengie say shan looks hot!haha..last time she's like so fat..>,<
Ok ok..den RENGIE NG go tell ANGIE YAP i go out with chio bu..LOL!den she say she going out with HOT GUY!LOL!she qiang diao VERY HOT AND HANDSOME OKKAY!!haha..den so long nvr see shan she was like grow such a big big mouth lol!! keep talking and talking NON-STOP!Damn noisy de larh!!we go out for about 4 and 1/2 hr..den 2 and 1/2 hr she quiet..cox tat time watching movie..the rest of the time is NOISY!!! oh btw we bought sushi in to eat den the stupid tee 沾 many many washabi..LOL!!!Den she kinda "scream" haha...funny sia..den during the movie gt msg wif angie..den after movie i tell her finish le..blah blah..den heard tat aaron is watching same movie at same place at same time with me!!lol!!din get to see him..=X oh oh..saw tee's bf from far..din really see how he look like..but should be kinda cute and small looking..lol he's 19 but look damn like sec sku student...like a bit bigger size than godwin..that's all..LOL!

2009-07-05T06:25:00.000-07:00

WHY...
Why is it like that..Last time I only emo once in a while..But now?EMO EVERYDAY!!! Be it in weekday or weekend, be it in school or at home, emo everyday,everytime,everywhere..Sight just turn blur..What the hell's going wrong with me..

2009-07-03T19:45:00.000-07:00

FAIRY TALE...
Prince knows to go and wake princess up in fairy tale beacuse she is poisoned by the witch..But if the story is to change..if the witch is the one who was in deep sleep..Will any Prince save her?No one will,I guess..Beacuse witch is bad and evil..No one likes her..There are things that are hard to say..Haiz..these things are hard to put in words.........

2009-07-03T18:29:00.000-07:00

CONVERSATION...
Yesterday night,we had a conversation through sms..
Me:Halo!Busy playing game?
She:Ya...
Me:Why u like play game so much?><
She:Fun ma :D
Me:Haha..ok..in wad way u find game fun?
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Me:Why dun wan reply me..very busy?
She:Ya..
Me:Den i tok and u listen okkay..?
She:ok..
Me:Kk..thx..So long alrdy and we din even tok..there's so much i wan to tell u actually..but i juz cant find the time..and even when i get close to u,my mind will go blank..why ar u like so cold toward me?i feel lik there's a wall btween us,when i try to get close to u,it pushes me further..
She:okkay..
Me:Should i tell u or not?those thing i wan to say..it seems like very long but i can juz put them into a few words..it would be better if i can tell u face to face..
She:okkay..
Me:U sound like u dun care..u dun care?ok nvm..u wan me to tell u here or u wan to hear from me?if u wan me to tell here den promise me something..
She:ok..
Me:Ok is wad..i dunno wad ok mean..nvm..night..sweet dream..=D
She:...
Me:Why tat reaction?im sry if i sound harsh..
Sad uhh..why the reaction like that..Sad..Sad..Sad..Sad..Sad..Sad..Sad..Sad..Sad..
NEVERMIND!!I'm going to be strong and try to forget you..Forget your smile forget your voice..

2009-07-03T01:12:00.000-07:00

CONTRADICTION...
I hate you;I love you,You make me feel sad;You are the reason I smile,I don't want to see your face;I look forward to see you everytime..Why did I ever meet you?I know it is impossible for us,but what I want is just to be friend with you,yet when we see each other,you just walk pass me,like a stranger..Before I met you,my life is just black and white,after befriend you,my life is filled with colors,when you ignore me,my life is all black..Why is your influence to me so great?I don't wish for anything,I just want to be good friend with you,if not,I will try to forget you..But it'll be hard,because it is you...

LISTEN...
Isn't anyone out there who is willing to listen to my heart,my soul,my tears?My broken heart..My lonely soul..My tears of sadness..Maybe someday,I will just collapse without anyone knowing..

PEICES...
My heart is like a puzzle that has lost its peices..I know where they can be found,but I can't pick them up..They are somewhere in my friends..Only they can pick the peices up and put them together..But who will realise it and who will help me..?

2009-07-02T01:04:00.000-07:00

THINK POSITIVE...
Today,during CME,mr singh talk about thinking positively..think positive,being emo is not bad huh...you'll learn the unjustice and unfairness of the world..

YOU...
I was feeling all fine today..then suddenly during art I saw you,all of a sudden I 起鸡皮疙瘩..Then I starting feeling low and sad..All day..sad sad de..all because of you la I hate you lah..I don't want to see your face yet I met you in Northpoint..T,T

CRY...
There're so many times today that I feel like crying..My tears are nearly drop..Then I'll close my eyes..Preventing them from dropping..Sometimes I'll imagine..If there's this very one friend of mine,who can lend me his or her shoulder,I would be happy..But is impossible..I can't find someone like this..

EMO...
People asked me why am I emo..I don't know..But now,I know..I've found out the answer..There's just one answer..No more..The answer is because I am me..Being me is just too tired..Why,God,why did you set this kind of life for me?I...

2009-07-01T05:43:00.000-07:00

TOOL...
I'm sick and tire of being other's tool..I don't want to be treated as tool anymore..I can't struggle out and be free..Even if I've gotten my freedom,what can I do?A tool is nothing but a tool..

DISTANCE...
I've felt the distance somehow..The distance between you and me..Though sometime I'll tried to talk or sort of get close to you,I still felt an invisible wall between us..and it pushes me far far away from you..

SEPERATE...
People said I look emo in school,but I'm really happy sometime in school,is not fake smile..I really like this class..Time like these seems to last forever,but someday the end will come..Everyone will seperate..Surely no one will remember and contact me..But I'll still keep these time as the most memorable memory in my mind..

SPECIAL...
Friends,classmate, and you..as we glow up,as we become adults,you will slowly forget me,you will not remember me..But even if you forget me,even if you don't remember me,you will be special to me...